Journal Entry for October 19, 2008
October 19, 2008 7:47am
im really having hardtime with my daddy i miss him so badly its almost like i cant breath at points. im still convinced hes going to come home …
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I lost my dad April 10, 2007 He was ok then within a few month just go so bad. He died of heart disease, High bp, diabetes, and his spine was deterating so much he couldnt hold his head up or talk anymore and im devastated no idea which way is up. He died at home in his sleep very peacefully. I had seen him laying there that AM i thought he was sleeping so i didnt try to wake him he just looked so peaceful and rested which he had not look in so long so i left him and went on my trip. Little did i know he had died. I got the news 3 1/2 hrs away from home. It was best I wasnt there. Im lucky i didnt have to see that it would have killed me. I believe the world has suffered a tragic loss losing him. I barely survived cushings symdrome found in 98 now 10 years later still dealing with after effects i feel it has robbed me of my life. my teen years and the adult life so far, im now a BBW im comfortable in the skin im in well to a point...i know im not ugly i dont feel fat but seeing myself in a full body pic or mirrow id rather not i just finish college im trying to pick up the pieces and go on just a daily struggle i have never been married and have no kids just 2 poochies
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Hey girl we are up cant sleep again kinda been a rough night for us...just thought id say hi and i love…
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Hey Morgan sending you a big hug tonight. Remember that I love you cous...Love & hugs, Connie
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I understand what you're going through. My little sister told my family that, if I was at an event, she wouldn't go. They used to buy into it, until I told them all how stupid they were. I told them that if that was her decision, then fine, she would just have to miss out. They're just as bad as she is if they let her behave that way. Let's face it, your brother needs to realize that if he allows his children to grow up in that kind of toxic environment, that he's not acting in their best interest. He's showing them that it's ok to act like a child when you're supposed to be a grown up. I can't tell you how to fix it, but I understand how your feeling. Nobody likes to be blackballed. She really sounds like a poisonous personality.
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I'm sending you a big hug,because we are not alone.But thankyou for posting,it feels good to know these horrible happen.
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I LOVE YOU SWEETIE, KEEP YOUR CHIN UP OK...HUGS Connie
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read my journal hon need ur help xxx
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Close Cushing's Syndrome
I was 16 when they found my cushings i had 60% of my pituitary gland removed and shortly after i was still ill so they gave me radiation. I have no trace of my gland now. I am on thyroid med for underactive gland, i also do not produce and GH so i have to take injection for that as well. I never recoveded from the cushings. Ever since i had radiation i have been tired ever since. Trying to lose weight has been my biggest struggle im at a dangerous weight now, trying to get lapban
Treatments
- Surgery Somewhat Helpful
- Had 60% of gland removed, not sick anymore from my cushings, now just dealing with the after effects...high BP, low thyroid, no production of Growth hormone, massive weight gain, trouble with my bones and joints, depression, sleep apnea, always tired. no monthly cycle since gland was removed, acne, hump on back of my neck and round face...i still have all symptons of cushing with the gland to go with it.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentMy daddy died April 10, 2007 at home due to heart disease, diabetes, and high BP he also couldnt hold his head up anymore due to his spine detearating. he also couldnt talk much
Treatments
- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- i feel released
- Getting Angry Not Working
- its not his fault he died im not mad at him just mad that it happened to him when so many bad people live and good people like him die its not right
- Grief Counseling Too Soon to Tell
- just started
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- it was working but just dont want to so anything
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- some helps some really makes it worse
- Pets Working / Worked
- my 2 puppys keep me busy
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- i can only hope hes around and not in pain and will never leave me
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- just makes me sad
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- i believe its a personal process but not being alone helps
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- with certin people it helps
- Time Too Soon to Tell
- there is no set time its all very personal and it will talk all the time it needs
Open Families & Friends Of Addicts
My family has a dependency problem...mostly these days is pain killers...my mom recovering and her sister is just so far gone from pills , my g-ma was bad at it too, my brother is recovering alcoholic, another brother has a unaddressed problem lots of drinkers and pill takers in my family I stay away from it all. I cant even take asprin cause of them
Treatments
- Patience Not Working
- i get mad
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- I hope it works for my mama cause i cant help her the way she needs it
- Talking Not Working
- goes in 1 ear out the other
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
I have a germ phobia so i wont eat at pot luck dinners unless i made it or i watch someone make it, or i know you really well and i know your house is clean...just depends but i generally wont eat others cooking cause i dont know if they washed hands or licked spoons...i had got an MRSA from someone and this started after i got it and found out how i got it.
Treatments
- Lamictal Too Soon to Tell
- Thought Field Therapy (TFT) Too Soon to Tell
Open Loneliness
Morgan7369 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Family Issues
my brother married an evil person she hates the air i breath never liked me she came in and tore us apart its sad my brother let it happen. i only seen my niece 2x i was taking pics and she was scared they were going to be on myspace so i was banned from seeing/talking to them and GUESS WHAT i found her myspace shes got my niece as her main picture,and i cant come around? pure evil,this girl is nuts so they have family gathering but im not invited i spend holidays alone this is so uncalled for
Treatments
- Family Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- im trying but it just makes me feel like an ass cause this is so stupid and immature
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes heavy and fast music helps
- Talking Not Working
- nobody wants to break the egg shells they walk on for them so i talk they listen nothing changes other then i just get pissed all over again
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- makes me feel better but annoyed
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