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I am 27 I have 3 very fantastic kiddos! My husband and I were recently married this month! I have had the toughest year. I lost my loving father in Feb of this year to a CVA he wa 51. The hospital missdiagnoised him. He was an Organ donor and that was a very painful experience. I am deeply affected by his death. My cousin passed away from a tragic fire 3 weeks after my father, he was only 15 and I am so lost. My bestfriend lost her son to sids shortly after that. I am confused with my faith.
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I am so sorry, I really am, nothing and no one can take the pain away. I would suggest however, that you turn to your husband for support. Tell him how much you love him and let him hold you while you cry. I talk to those I love and lost all the time. It helps me to think (hope) they hear me and even if not I know I am saying to them what I need them to know. I wish for you peace and forgiveness. No matter what you can not bring him back and so find someone you can talk to about your feelings. It took me three years to be able to get out of bed without feeling the weight of bricks on my chest.
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I know what you are going thru. I lost my Dad in May, 2007. My fiance and I had to go back to my home state (Wisconsin) for the funeral. It was difficult. I, too, have lost most of my faith, but it wasn't due to Dad's death. It was because of the fact that Dad and I fought over religious issues (my fiance is Atheist) all the time... constantly. It was a never ending battle... or at least it seemed. When a person gets religion pushed in their face, constantly, they tend to lose their faith because of the other person's pushiness. That's what happened to me. I'd like to become your friend here on Daily Strength. You can also find me on myspace (www.myspace.com/wapandababy). Here's a hug for you to try to brighten your day a little. Take Care !! Always, Karen
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It will get better sug. I went through six months of pure hell. I was so depressed I couldn't get out of bed some days. I stayed so medicated I was completely out of it. I am much better now through the help of family and some good friends and God. I am begining to get my life back on track. Be sweet
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I wanted to welcome you to the site and let you know you're always welcome to vent here on those rough days. Lauren
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentI lost my Daddy to a CVA in Feb, My cousin to a fire in March, and my bestfriends 6 month old to sids in July. This year has been very bumpy. I am trying to find my faith which some how has lost me thru this.
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- Crying Not Working
- I find that crying makes the pain worse.
- Getting Angry Somewhat Helpful
- I drive out to the boondocks pull over and scream as loud as I can. I go to the gym and beat the heck out of the punching bag.
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- My children and I joined a group for an 8 week program. It helped at the time, and at that time I was still in shock and denial.
- Keeping Busy Not Working
- I was very busy this year planning my wedding, co-coaching my sons baseball team, cleaning out my fathers house etc... oh the list goes on. I worked a tun of overtime, always cleaning. These things don't distract me for long.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- I find strength in songs that remind me of them, they make me cry and remember special momments.
- Prayer Considering
- I have lost my trust in god & am very angry with him. My prayers have not been answered, however I have joined a new church where I feel his power again and I want his help to heal. I want to feel his love again so this time I am making my prayers smaller.
- Remembering Too Soon to Tell
- I think everyday about precious momments and times I shared with them. I don't want to forget every dimple sound or smell, for that is all I have left.
- Support from Friends & Family Considering
- My friends are not there I have grown distant from them thru this grieving process. My sisters are dealing with their own trials and pain. Ihave tried to be strong for them.
- Talking Not Working
- I find it hard to speak of my loved ones the pain seems to much and I feel guilty to bother everyone with all my emotions.
- Skin Graft Working / Worked
- My Daddy always had the most wonderful garden. This year I planted my first I made sure I planted his signature tomatoe plants I even took one his tomatoe cages from his house. I got a Jay bird that says Daddys Garden and put it in there. I put a table next to it and a chair. I sit out there for hours talking to my Daddy. It puts reality back into play for me.
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