Journal Entry for March 12, 2008
March 12, 2008 11:04pm
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overwhelmed! too much reality, chaos, and grief... not really born in 1906!
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ferrets. I don't do ordinary
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Journal Entry for March 12, 2008
March 12, 2008 2:17am
I am giving leaving this site a great deal of consideration, along with leaving t he MSN site.
I am not mean , and I don't do anger.... …
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flowers for my girl, hows snuggley? my girls are the only thing right in my life...lol..how sad but true...miss you hunny...big huggles, oxoxo...where did bart go, I miss him?
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What do you do when life seems hopeless,when you're disappointed,in despair,when you've lost something that held meaning to you,when tomorrow is uncertain? You keep trying,hoping, and dreaming anyway,taking one day, one problem at a time,knowing that bad luck doesn't last forever, that tomorrow your life could turn around. All is never lost. All is never hopeless. Despair doesn't last forever. And later we often find that even our disappointments turned out to be blessings.Please don't ever lose Hope! Love,Maria
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I miss you and need your friendship.love Rain xoxo
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thinking of you
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Friendship is not a hill or mountain.It has no height or measure.Friendship is not money in the bank,but is has a value greater than gold,for it's the most beautiful thing you'll ever touch or behold,because it's life's greatest treasure~ Love,Maria
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Close Multiple Personalities
49 year old woman, 2 children ages 20 and 31. I think I have been depressed forever. Found out about my others about 18-19 years ago. Not everyone is happy about joining/telling we are here. Have had a huge amount of stress during the past year. finding it hard to stay present. whew! Are we scared! -hopeful, but scared.
Treatments
- Adderall Working / Worked
- Treating symptoms only. So far this is/has been the most helpful. Tried Straterra but too much muscle tension & jerkiness
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I have big trust issues. I had a fantastic pdoc and tdoc combo,for 1st several yrs. Did most 'work', during that period. HAD to change. Trust Issues increased
- Selegiline Working / Worked
- May 2007 Started using the Em Sam patch to treat my depression. July seems to help. Swelling in feet- odd
Close Euthanasia
I was with my boyfriend almost 14 years when he committed suicide.I was on the phone with him, as he did it. I loved him enough to let him go. We discussed the situation and alternatives at great length many times. I chose to stay with him and in/as a part of his life, to the end. I didn't want him feeling alone and unloved, when he needed it most. suicide 3/19-20/06 found 3/21/06 memorial 4/1/06 INCREDIBLY HARD AND SAD
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
My B/F of 14 yrs. commited suicide in March 2006. I was on the phone with him while he went through it. I (his family & close friends)knew it was going to happen, but that doesn't make it easier to be without him. I loved him enough to stay with him, to the very end. I still do love him.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- My Psychiatrist knows what happened. and why. She has helped me to know it wasn't my fault, even though there have been remarks made about my fault.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- seems most people can't or won't talk about it, or him. I am judged harshly for my choice, to stay with him til the end. I wanted him to know he was loved, no matter what. I didn't want him to feel alone during the time he felt most desperate. People can be harsh.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Keeping track of my feelings and venting seems to help.
