Crazy Train
October 20, 2008 8:23pm
I could swear that some days I wonder why I am in the place that I am. My sig. other tonight had another manic phase. He gets stressed …
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PanicButton
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Enjoys the sun...hates the cold.
About Me
I just finished my Masters degree in Criminal Justice/Criminal Behavior online. At 34 years old, I have not had many steady jobs due to my anxiety. My mom died last November from congestive heart failure, and my father is an alcoholic. My biggest passion in life is helping children and young adults who have a parent with any addiction. I have yet to figure out how to do that with my anxiety. I also want to have a family, but my fears have taken over with that.
Interests
Movies, music, making crafts (plastic canvas, jewelry, wood crafts, scrapbooking, card making), spending time with my dog, Mini Cooper, my two cats, Maximus & Jagr, and my love Bryan.
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Mild attack tonight
September 29, 2008 12:15am
Tonight was a bad night for me as I had a panic attack here at home. I wasn't feeling well for some reason, and my mind just took off into …
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Another day
September 17, 2008 12:49pm
I talked to my dad this morning, he seemed to be somewhat quiet today. I don't know what is wrong with him, but I didn't ask so that he …
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Employment & My Passions
September 15, 2008 7:41pm
With the Masters I now have in Criminal Justice/Criminal Behavior I am looking to help children/young adults who have been affected by any type of …
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Doctor Appointment
September 15, 2008 7:28pm
So, my doctors appointment has been changed as the doctor has some conference she has to be at that week. That is OK, but I still have to do …
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I’m With You
it is cold outside here today. But the sun is shining and it is still cold. Have a good week. Cindy
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May you know that you are loved May you know that you are thought of May you know that you are someone special May you know that you are unique in your own way I wanted to send you this hug to let you know how much I care. You're in my thoughts and prayers every day. I will always be here for you. Teresa
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Know that others are sending warm wishes your way. when you can take a glimps at the tiniest bit of light..know there is hope :) Hugs, snooze
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Good afternoon :) Smile, I'm thinking of you. There is NO TIME for pity. Get up, love yourself, believe in yourself and change your attitude toward feeling better. Hugs, LeAnne
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Meaning Of A Friend... True friendship costs nothing, But gives you so much. It brings forth a warmth of happiness, Knowing that someone cares. It gives you a smile of laughter, That makes your day brighter. It creates that unmistakable harmony, That you are wanted and trusted. It gives you a meaning of belonging, knowing someone believes in you. It perks you up when you are feeling sad, It's that shining star of hope, Coming out when you need it most. Thanks for being my friend. I love you very much. Love, Teresa
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Close Anxiety
I am a 34 year old woman who has suffered from panic/anxiety disorder since I was young. I have good days, and bad days. I try to test myself as much as I can with regards to my anxiety, but sometimes it is more difficult to do.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Somewhat Helpful
- I could only do it once because my insurance wouldn't pay for it.
- Atarax Working / Worked
- Hydroxyzine was the first medicine I was on when I was "officially" diagnosed in 1998. Worked for about 3 years and then stopped working. The docs then tried every other mediciation on me in order to find something that would work.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- I used to take 3 (.5mg) tabs each day, but now have gone to only taking a 1/2 tab when I am in a full fledged panic attack.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- I use the "no, you are not going to make me panic right now" phrase or I use "no" a lot and it tends to work, but can be difficult.
- Remeron Not Working
- Worst medicine I was ever on. Made me gain 50 lbs., and felt "over medicated" all the time. No longer take it.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- I have been on 300 mg. Effexor XR for quite some time now. It has it's ups and downs...
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ParentMy mother died on November 27, 2007 from complications of congestive heart failure. I took care of her for almost 4 years, taking her to appointments, hospital visits, and even just hanging out. She was my best friend, my anxiety fighter, my advice columnist, and my mom. I have severe guilt from her passing as I knew that something was wrong with her the night before she died, and she told me that she was just tired and needed sleep. She didn't want to go to the hospital that night.
Treatments
- Crying Not Working
- I can cry all I want, and it never seems to help. All it does is give me a headache and makes me sick.
- Grief Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I see a therapist for my anxiety and also discuss my mother's passing. It helps, but only for a brief time.
- Keeping Busy Working / Worked
- I had begun my Masters Degree online just two months before my mom died. If I didn't have that to keep me focused (it was the week of finals when she passed), I don't think I would have made it through anything.
- Music Working / Worked
- My mom and I both loved Elvis, and his music helped me to get through some of the worst times in my life. This time was no different...I now that mom is up in Heaven with Elvis and is finally able to see him in concert like she was unable to do when she was young.
- Pets Working / Worked
- My two cats & my dog know more than anyone else I know. They were always around me and never left my side. One of my cats & the dog don't get along that well...but from the day she died and for weeks later...they all laid on the bed and slept at night there when I tried to sleep. I know that they knew something happened.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- Every night I pray to God. I may not attend church every week, but that doesn't mean I don't believe in God.
- Remembering Working / Worked
- I write in a journal to my mom when I need to talk to her. I have been doing this since the day she passed. This has helped me more than I think anything else I have done.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Without my husband, I would have no one. He is my strength, my soul mate, and my best friend.
- Time Somewhat Helpful
- It seems like it was just yesterday when my dad called and told me that my mom had died. I honestly did not think that I would make it through her death with my anxiety, but I did. And I know that my mom was with me and will always be with me.
Open Panic Attacks
I have had panic/anxiety disorder since I was a child. I am now 34 and still suffer with it.
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- I have good days and bad days on Effexor XR. I am doing better now than I have before I was on it.
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- I use it as needed.
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- I have been using the "NO" thought to try and fight the panic/anxiety. It works if I keep saying it and try to get my thoughts on something else.
Open Trying To Conceive
I am a 34 year old woman who suffers from anxiety. My hubby and I have been contemplating having a child with my anxiety. Although I want nothing more than to have a child, the fear and anxiety that comes with having a child is somewhat scary.
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