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Journal Entry for April 21, 2008 Mood

Monday, April 21, 2008

I've got the guilty mom blues. I just spent my tax $ for a plane ticket to fly 1 of my boys out. I didn't work enough to send them both out. The oldest isn't in school or working(???kids!!) so I sent out the younger. He's a good kid, a reader like me. He's not m y fave, just the easy kid. :) The other 2 are hard asses who like to argue(somewhat like me!! LOL!!) But I miss Theo as well. But I am counting down till Christopher gers here!!! And, he's staying 7, repeat 7, weeks this year!!! whoo!! hooo!!!!! ~~~ I've signed up for Vocation Rehabilitation. I want to learn something besides being a cashier. ~~~Me and the voices are starting to learn how to work together, nstead of fighting all the time. It's fuckin hard work!!!!!!! LOL!!! But, I feel like I am moving forward, instead of sideways and backwards. Now, I'm not sayin I won't regress now and then. I'm just sayin it feels goood to see a future, a hopeful future. One without scars and suicide. And, see, now everyone wants to put in their 2 cents worth on the 'happy' statement. UGH!!! LOL!!!!! My head got REAL loud!! :) ~~~~ I miss my boys somethin fierce!!!!!

Hug reade...

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i got a really funny email today gonna , see if i can copy n paste it for you , glad your feelin more positive xxxxxxxxxxxxx

rjanie
Yahoo!!!!!!

catusannie
dont you be too hard on yourself hun...and as for the work you are doing with the voices and the sort...great job...it is hard work and far from easy...know i am thinking of you and loves ya bunches...yarrow

yarrowrainbowdancer
I am so glad your son is coming. That sounds wonderful.

And going to Voc Rehab? That's really great.

Sounds like everything is going much better. I knew you all could do it.

Hugs

ChrisAz