today i feel somewhat better although still some depressed.I relized something this weekend about myself.I have got to start loving myself.I want to look at the mirror able to just say i look pretty..And someone will love me for me and not try and change me ..why again do people try and change other people ?I think because they are unhappy with themselves.Anyways had softball practice with my daughter like all weekend ///very tiring but glad we all get the excerise ..here was kinda hot ..guess we are in for a bad summer..well ill close my journal today with a smile and knowing now I gotta lots to learn (to love myself)..smile everyone out there ...remember when all else fails turn to God..