the god of my heart
August 3, 2008 3:43am
The God of my heart is in my heart
not called by church bells, disturbing my
Sunday morning sleep.
is in the seeing of my sons
after two months of …
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irishwriter
is feeling Horrible
wish i didn't keep waking up
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About Me
am chef, poet, playwright and heritage specialist when able or fit to work which at the moment is not very often! The past year has been very bad with writing, producing and directing one of my plays the absolute highlight of my year! Have just had three bereavements in the space of a month, one very close friend and other two friends. two were sudden deaths from blood clots and the other had been ill for some time. am still in shock about my friend. He and his family are as close as non family can possibly be. his wife is one of my closest friends and the only person here who is aware of my battle with this disease, not because i hide it but because my act is so good that others just cannot comprehend that i am ill. my three children are a joy most of the time and am enjoying them more and more as they get older. boys 22 and 20 and girl 15, all so different with unique personalities and really nice people to talk to to. All three have had bouts of depression to deal with. (yes i feel guilty, my sister asked me did i not consider that i might pass this on before i had them!) Reading and writing save my sanity on a regular basis. I felt 'normal' for about half a day last week for the first time in thirty years and would love to feel it again.
Interests
Reading, writing, swimming, walking on the shore, talking!
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words
August 3, 2008 3:39am
Words
Words that ripple and roar, whispered softly,
wounding, clipping wings, pulling down.
Those that lift and fill like inconsequential …
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black
August 3, 2008 3:36am
Black
I remember the two days that lasted countless years
when there existed only the wounds
of yesterday and the salt in them of …
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it doesn't go away
August 3, 2008 3:31am
It Doesn't go Away (clifden anthology)
I used to have a brother
actually, I had four
Now with seven sisters
that number is no …
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It snowed today and we have a dusting on the ground so, I guess winter is here. Hope you are well Have a good week. God Bless, Tom
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It is soo nice to hear from you...I am very depressed right now...I am trying soooo hard to come back! I am sooo tired trying to do my best only to get kicked in the ass "heart"...over and over again! Please for give me not being here with you!...I am trying to get out of this place I am in!
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you too, sending extra warm hugs : )
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I see your face is a "horrible" one (((Irishe))), I am sorry about that.............I am a little better yesterday and so far today....goodness this disease is tiring..........................................
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sunday hugs! sorry your feelin down. hope you feel better soon. xx
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Close Bipolar Disorder
Hi all, have just joined. I have been battling depression for thirty years and only recently found out that there is an aspect of bipolar called dysphoric mania which finally explained everything. Does anyone know anything helpful about this?
Treatments
- Ambien Working / Worked
- helps me get some sleep
- Lexapro Too Soon to Tell
- just added this into the mix so hoping it will make a difference
- Lithium Too Soon to Tell
- only on it a couple of day. Priadel 800. cannot judge yet. no side effects so far.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- have used this as needed for a long time luckily never got addicted and always find it really works well in mind racing all over the place mode. increased appetite is side effect i would be careful of as weight gain is not an option that im willing to tolerate!
Close Depression
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- feel it has been making things worse. dont trust this med as my brother completed suicide while on it.
- Lexapro Not Working
- just stopped it this week
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- if we could think ourselves better, of course we bloody would!
- Writing Working / Worked
- as a working writer this has been of huge benefit over the years
- Xanax Working / Worked
- best ever for racing thoughts etc.. careful not to get addicted. increased appetite. .5 to 1mg
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