Hanging on....
A little better today....trying to figure one's self out is not easy! My birthday is coming...30...oh my god! Laying in my bed as a …
Im 29....with the BIG 3-0 coming on fast...I'm a Mama to a young son! I work. I miss the not so heavy....not so tired....not so unhappy ME! I have Lupus...or so thats what they think...Im a struggler....from birth! Im a product of my childhood and thus far its eating me alive...I want to live and love and JUST BE HAPPY...i want to be the kind of person i was meant to be...i damn sure refuse to live this way any longer....NOW WHERE AND HOW DO I START???
I love music...all types....i havent lived much...but plan on doing alot of it before its too late. I want to someday finish Radio/TV Productions...then go on to learn how to produce sweet sweet music....i love to write when i can get a thought out of this mess of a mind...ive been working on a song....i got the words and a friend is helping with the music...who knows? MY SON...he is one of the bravest lil guys i know...so much braver than i ever thought of being... and hes a proud boy...i love him deeply...i want to be better for him...he knows his Mama is sad....i want to love him more... talk with him more...i want to run with him and ruff-house and LAUGH MORE with him...HE DESERVES IT!!!! and so do I!!!
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He's 7 im 29...and our family need some help!…
A little better today....trying to figure one's self out is not easy! My birthday is coming...30...oh my god! Laying in my bed as a …
What am i going to do....change? or stay the same? Tell him the truth? or Let him go? Give up or find the strength to be true to ME? 10 months …
(jian feng zhuang duo) Literally: See the wind, turn the rudder Meaning: Change one's position when sees difficulties ~Chinese Proverb
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“Life's like a movie, write your own ending. Keep believing, keep pretending.” Jim Henson
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I've been the fat kid the fat sister the fat friend....all my life now im the fat mama...im not sure why i didnt get a handle on this sooner...it took me by suprise...I'm READY!! I will not spend another day feeling trapped by this body....I WANT TO LOVE MYSELF....i want to LIVE and be healthy....ok now HELP...please! I need support from other like minded people...who know where im coming from!
I have no idea how to eat right....NONE!! Im a very picky eater...green beans are the only veggie i'll eat...HELP!
I got sick 2 yrs ago went to doctor after doctor went to MD Anderson Cancer CTR they suspected Lupus then i came home got a RH doctor and he's done the test the ANA one and it's been - i have classic sym. and all just no + test....flare after flare...how long does it take? ive taken lots of the different meds...steriods and such i try to manage the best i can the pain meds. make me feel sick and tired. Looking for a lil support and anyone w/ the same story would help i feel like im going crazy!
I smoke and have tried to stop...i keep going back...
He's 7 im 29...and our family need some help!