is feeling OK
I used to be anorexic when i was 18, then switched bulimic, then went back and forth between the two. Eat almost nothing, then binge and purge, endless cycle of hell. I have now overcome that, but I still purge every once in a while. Overall i had a huge weight loss, so the fat me is always looking at me in the mirror. its a nightmare. I have been on every diet in the world, nothing works for me. I exercise almost everyday and now im into weight lifting and seeing muscles!! I have a corporate job and I feel too old to still be feeling like this. Every day is a day filled with calorie counting and food journaling and exercising. Part of me wants to be free, the other doesnt know how to live without it.... confused thats why im here i guess.
Reading, love fitness magazines, weight lifting, elliptical, movies, going out with friends and husband.
July 20, 2008 8:43pm
Im kind of glad that I found this place. Part of me is confused. I feel like coming on here means im totally ready to be normal and recovered. …
