latrommi's Journal

I posted something in my group Targets No More.  But I wanted to say something here as well.  First the link to the post:  http://dailystrength.org/groups/targets-no-more/discussions/messages/4047635

Now, the something else that I wanted to say here.  What I didn't say in that post was that I also have had some serious thoughts of committing suicide do to this problem.  But as you can see....I DIDN'T go through with it.  I did contact my counselor and a good friend of mine (though I think I gave him a really bad scare) concerning this.  They were able to talk me out of the spiral that I found myself in.

I'm not out of the woods yet, but I am away from the edge that I was on.  But this whole incident did show me that even though I had come a long way from where I was 4 years ago (I was suicidal then too), I still have a long ways to go.  I'm just not sure how to go about it.  I don't know what my next step should be......outside of talking about it.

But I feel that there is something more that I need to do, I just don't know what it is.  And I don't want to backslide any further than I already have.

So, that is the addition.......

Till next time....