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i had a realization last week, i can't take this pain anymore. here's what happened:
i was taking a shower and had a plastic bag to cover my sutures. as i was getting out my wife noticed that there was a lot of blood in one of the bags, this is not a good thing, so we go to the hospital. as the doc unwrapped my feet we saw a huge hematoma on the side of my foot, again this is not a good thing (the last hematoma i had took over 6 months to heal). the doc had to clean it up and was trying to be as gentle as he could, but i couldn't even take that pain. so i decided then and there that the time had come for me to tell my surgeon that i wanted to amputate my legs.
long story short:
i'm going to lose my legs this wednesday. i'm not ready for it,but then again i'd never be ready for it. no matter how much time i spent trying to get ready for it. my wife keeps encourageing me, "this is improving your quality of life. you're going to walk again."
i'm trying to keep a good attitude, but i'ts pretty difficult. i'm more apprehensive now than i was when i was thinking about it. i'm losing my legs, not only a major part of my body but also of my being. it's a shock big time.
this is the most dangerous surgery that i've ever had, i could die if the right thing goes wrong and that scares me most. the thing i've got to remember is that i've got a lot of people that love and support me. so any prayers or encouragement is greatly apprieciated.
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It is a difficult decision to make for ourselves. Your wife is right that you will walk again one day. Make sure you follow your surgeon's orders, the follow-up care and the whole process you will go through in order to be fitted for your prosthesis. There are several stages you will go through before you're able to wear them all the time but it is worth it to be able to get about again. Keep us updated on your progress. I know it's scary and worrisome because I've been there. I've lost one foot (I'm a left below the knee amputee) and I know I went through a whole gambit of emotions and feelings when I had to make the decision, go through with it and the healing process. I was off my diladin (sp?) within 3 weeks after surgery. I kept a journal of the time and amounts of pain killer I took after surgery and I was taking less and less as I healed. Take care.
Arlene
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