JenRivera's Journal

Hello whomever is reading this,

      I hope you find yourself well and safe. I guess I should start by telling you about myself and my "disfuntions".

      My name is Jenny, I am 37 years old, gay and live in NYC. I have Multiple Sclerosis and was diagnost in Nov. of 1996. My condition was stable and I had no limitations nor any physical signs of disability for a very long time (not long enough in my book) until Nov. 20, 2003 the date I had someone who decided to cut off the bus I was driving and hit the bus on the front end right where I sat. Well one thing led to another, thank god no one was injured on my bus except for myself. I was worried for them (my passengers) while they were more worried for me. I was taken out by EMS on a backboard still worried about everyone else and asking if everyone was ok. Well what happened next changed my life.

     Working for tranit you have to remember that if you have an incedent or accident like I did you are guilty until proven guiltier. I was accused, reaccuse, and accused some more, taken for drug and alcohol test at least half a dozen times (even though the other driver said he was at fault), phone calls, accusations, STRESS to the point of a nervous breakdown. From that I ended up from fine walking 2 miles a day, to walking with a cane, then a walker and wheelchair all within less than 4 months.

      Now i cannot walk with a walker not even a half a block, use a wheelchair when I  have no other choice and almost alway with someone pushing me around(litterally and otherwise).

       Even  with all this I try, god I do try to keep a positive attitude, eventhough its getting harder and harder everyday.

       Is there someone out there that understand what I am going through????