is feeling Good
On a High.... 4 now.
I got a job at Burger King after 25 years of not working outside the home. I am very excited but still hoping the state will have funds for me to get an education in order to have an actual career. I am still very angry with my ex spouse and need help from others that can relate to a long term relationship ending, that you did not want to end. I was married to an alcoholic for 25 years. I have two grown sons, 23 and 21 both off on their own working and furthering their education. I live alone with my all black cat Lucky, who was named after Tom Petty's character on King of the Hill. I was handed divorce papers 12 Days Before Christmas (so you can bet that Christmas Carole has a new meaning for me now) ugh because my (blonde) ex was told by his domestic violence councellor that the courts are so over loaded with divorce cases the first of the year, so he wanted to get his in sooner? Ay yi yi I still would have liked councelling going out of marriage, just like you have to when you go in...make sense? All I have is this home (from my settlement) I am in, which has no value. As ex was self employed and has a 13000 tax lien on it. He has been gracious enough to continue to pay the power, lights fuel, phone since last Aug 8th when he was arrested. I have two sisters one older that lives not too faraway here in Michigan and a younger one that lives In Green Bay. I have a granddaughter that lives up north here in MI that I never get to see. She will be 3 this Aug 24.Okay even though I should be grateful to be out from under him, the abuse was far and inbetween but getting worse, we did have a lot of great times. I had a lumpectomy in Feb. of '05 and I beat cancer without chemo and radiation treatments with his help. He bought us an Omega Juicer and juiced me fresh organic carrot apple juice everyday with wheat grass powder in it! And the cancer has not come back! Thank God.... People ask me did you know he drank when you met him?!?! Duh at 21 who didn't? Drivin' around drinkin was a pasttime. When our boys got older I thought ex would quit but never did. Was very hard to teach them not to drink and drive when they seen daddy doing it everyday. I am bitter also because I wish he would have divorced me when I still had my mom and dad. I lost my dad in '99 and then my momma/bestfriend on my birthday Aug.2nd, 01. Ex still has both his mom and dad and "claims" to live with them. Yeah riiiiiiiight. Gimme a break. I am envious he has his mom and dad and I don't .... His mom and dad are great people and still love me. So does ex's oldest sister.... I never thought in a million years this would ever happen to me. My parents were married for 50 years. My oldest sister and her hubby for 40, my youngest sister and her hubby will be 26 this Sept. I don't know if I will ever get over this or be the same.
Rock and Roll and all kinds of musica! Tom Petty is a fave Bargain shopping, flowers houseplants, the tv show HOUSE playing canasta online.
September 21, 2008 1:04am
Last Monday I went to my first Divorce Care Meeting.
I was so anxious, nervous etc....There was a free supper and worship prior to the meeting but I …
September 2, 2008 7:09pm
How I miss those back to school days, not only for myself but for my boys too.
Many times throughout their school year I would sing a little song I …
August 30, 2008 8:39pm
Quit my job at Burger Kink. I cannot stand the smell, and the meat was coming out Red and the lady training me, yes she was a lady, not a girl, …
July 28, 2008 10:05pm
Don't have to live like a Refugee, instead I should be Learnin to Fly...
Just an American Girl living in the House Out By The …
July 28, 2008 1:23am
Stairway to Heaven playing on the radio in the background as I write this.
I mourning the passing of relationships I have lost this year.
25 yr …
“You need to be aware of what others are doing, applaud their efforts, acknowledge their successes, and encourage them in their pursuits. When we all help one another, everybody wins.”
TODAY can be a healthy unusual day for you-and for others-if you take time to give someone a smile . . . to express a word of kindness . . . to lend a helping hand to someone in need . . . ..to write a note of gratitude . . . to give a word of encouragement to someone who is temporarily overcome with problems . . . to share a portion of your material possessions with others.
Hold your head high, stick your chest out. You can make it. It gets dark sometimes, but morning comes. Keep hope alive.
No one is in control of your happiness but you; therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.
“May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays.”
Was married 25 years, stay at home mom, mother of two sons. Now 23 and 21 and did not want divorce. Have now found out ex has moved on with a younger woman with an 8 year old daughter.
I have been diagnosed bipolar manic depressive for over 20 years now. I have a script for xanax but been taking higher doses of that then I should. I was married and divorced for 25 years to an abusive alcoholic and I did not want the divorce. I am alone. My two grown sons live in the same state but are in other towns. I lost my dad in '99, I lost my mom/bestfriend on my birthday 8/02/01. I had breast cancer in 05. I don't want to be here anymore.
diagnosed as bi-polar in '04. I have suffered with depression I believe since my teens, but wasn't started with medications until my late twenties.
