paigeydaisey's Journal

monday morning. who am i this week? Anyone I want to be. Classy yet, stylish and pure. friendly, but you wouldn't think so. Pretty and fair. Light and flowy. Free.

Free to find security in my mind. To write down what I think, to be conscious of how I feel. To let go of the attachment of the ego. Let everything go. Every thought carries equal weight. Thats all.

Yesterday I hung out with Erica's friend Jen. We adventured through her beautiful home. She had a secret garden. We sat under the fig tree where strands of garlic hung from the curly cue roots. Tree stumps carved into chairs. Hookah and trippy music. Smoke from our mouths exhaling to the atmosphere around us. The smoke rises up to the noise of the birds squawking at nature's fierce exuberance.

There we were amongst it all. On top of her roof. Eating lunch. Create it now was a saying painted on the machinery. The trees soared above the buildings, hovering over us like an igloo in the sky. The wind passed. It was too breezy to keep the coals lit, but it was just breezy enough that you could hear the trees sway. The wind was talking to the trees. But the trees werre talking among themselves. Yet all together these separate entities worked as one to create the illusion I had been experiencing right before my very own eyes. Eyes. I saw it all. I can say I saw it. But do I really know that I saw it. DO I have any proof besides this candid image in my head. All that remains is a memory. A moving visual of the greenery that makes up the world that ecompasses life of all matter.


And if only you could dream, they say, you wouldnt be so fucked. its all you ppl dying from ignorance who are screwed.its okay. okay. always okay.

never forget paige, clear your thoughts out good. let the universe hear you. speak to it. what doyou want it to know
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Well i guess I would like to tell the universe that I am greatful to be alive. That it supprots me. gave me a good family and an amazing education. Gave me a beautiful spacesuit to roam around in that i can use to my advantage. Love life, how can one in my posiiton not?