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Oh my gosh! My pain is so high right now, I am miserable. Today was a good day at school. The kids were well behaved (of course everyone is good on the first day of schoo, right?), it was a positive atmosphere, and lots of smiles. But boy did I forget how much ENERGY teaching requires. Right after homeroom I could tell it was going to be a long day. The pain was kicking in and I was already tired of keeping on my "game face". It's not that I'm not happy, or don't like my "job".........it's just that it's difficult to smile and be positive all the time when I'm in constant pain. When school was over I had a lot of students from last year come to my room to tell me how much they miss me. I also had a couple old students that started high school today email me and say they missed me. So, that brought a smile to my face and made me think about me being a teacher. I know that's what I was born to do. I know I make a difference and am a good role model fro these kids. But, if they knew half the stuff I'm going through on a daily basis they would probably tell me to stay home and take care of myself:-) I did feel excited and ready to be back in the classroom at some points today. I honestly do love teaching. I just miss having the energy to do it easily. It also makes ya think when you meet 7th graders that are going through so much; death of a parent or parents, abuse, neglect, losing their hearing, poor, hungry, or alone. It breaks my heart and makes me appreciate the life I am living......pain or no pain!
Well, I am exhausted and want to go to bed. I haven't written in my journal in a long time. It feels good! I miss my friends so much on DS. I pray for them daily and think abuot them all the time. I just feel bad that I don't have the time to chat or keep up with everyone.
Well, hopefully tomorrow will be a successful day when I meet the 2nd half of my students:-)
~Jenn
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Jenn,
I know how hectic the beginning of school can be. Our youngest daughter & her husband are teachers. You know you've made a difference in a child's life if they keep in touch with you as they move forward in their lives. I don't know how you manage to do it again with all the pain you're dealing with. I know teachers are not in it for the money but because for the love of teaching & the kids. But you have to take care of you. By continuing to work are you making your condition worse? Is there any way you can take the time off you work on you getting better? You have to know that you can't be all you could be if you felt better. Anyway, my hats off to you for what you do & that you are doing it under the most difficult of circumstances. I pray there is a way to get your pain under control so you can continue to do what you love doing, teaching & making a difference in the lives of the kids.
HUGS & LOVE,
...Roycce
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