BUCKEYES1's Journal

It's Thursday and we're getting ready to visit my family. I'm excited to see everyone.  I wanted to make sure I spent time with them before school starts because I won't be home again until Christmas. I can say, I am NOT looking forward to the road trip. We're taking my jeep. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE MY JEEP, but it's not the best on long road trips. Sitting in the jeep for 7 hours does not sound fun for my head pain. I know it will be worth it once we get there though!

Today has been an "okay" day. I went to the dentist..........still part of the "No Cavity Club"  YEAH! I just don't like how they lay my head back so far. I was miserable! The pressure on my head was killing me, and then the lady slipped her tool and sucked my lip into that nasty sucker upper thingy . Lovely huh! Then, I filled up the jeep with gas, put the windows and roof back on, and got it ready for our trip.

Yep, I pushed it too much! I came inside and felt sick to my stomach. Layed down for a bit and felt a little better. AHHHHHHHHH! I just get so frustrated. I can't even lift a plastic window for my jeep without the pressure going crazy in my head. Oh well, I better get used to it!

We will be coming back on Monday, probably around 6'ish. I have a sleep study to rule out central sleep apnea that night. I will be at the facility from 9pm-6am. I am NOT looking forward to that. How the heck do they expect you to sleep with all this crap hooked up to your head, in a wierd bed, and people stairing at you?  I'm sure I'll have a great Tuesday, NOT!

Right now, I'm feeling blah.  I miss ME! I miss who I used to be. I miss the energy I used to have. I miss the smile I used to have, and I miss the bright, cherry person I used to be. Now, I look in the mirror and I see a girl with dark circles under her eyes trying to hide the pain she's feeling inside. Will this feeling ever go away? Will I ever be the person I once was? I hope so, I miss that Jen! THINK POSITIVE, THINK POSITIVE!

Well, I better start packing. I'll just make sure my hubby lifts the suitcase into the jeep.

Peace and headache grease!