ManOrMonster's Journal

I really don't know what's missing.  Oh, what ever could it be?  Your smile?  Your laugh?  Your Heart.  

All the words have been spoken, and all the bridges have been built once again.  I still love you more than anything else in the world.  I still want to be with you for the rest of my life.  

But I really don't know what's missing.  

Has something gone?  Have your morals or your heart fled to another place?  One that's too far for me to get to, maybe?

This walled heart of mine is crumbling.  These scarred little wrist of mine are bleeding.  This innocent mouth is taking all the medication it can.  Help me please, Marcia, and fill this gap of mine!

Fill it with love, with courage and with you.  You're only one who can.  Maybe the only one who ever will?  So save me from my tears, my blood, and from myself.  I sink everyday without you.  It's as if these shadows can't get any deeper.

But they do.  They get deeper and darker and they destroy me every day.  Help me, my Queen!  Get me out of this cold dungeon and hold me in your arms!  Let me hold you tight, so I might feel that it could be like that forever.  Let me kiss those lips and let me give you my love!

But aren't these just letters on a page?  Isn't this just a message from a frightened little boy?  

No.  These are the thoughts of a struggling man who needs his world.  His pearl.  The woman who's so kind, so loyal, and so brave.  The woman who makes him feel like this place isn't so terrible.  This woman is his Queen.

So give me my Queen, my Marcia.  Give me your love and I'll give you mine.  Give me the woman whose kept me alive, kept me breathing and kept me loving!  Give me your heart!  Give me you!