I miss you asshole
December 1, 2008 4:36pm
I asked you not to call me and you said I am disturbed. So today you call me at work just to ask if you have any mail and the sound of …
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I hate that I miss him - he doesn't even deserve it.
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About Me
I am 38 years old, married for over three years with a 7 year old stepson, together over five years. Many break-ups later I have finally given up hope and will be getting a divorce. He went through rehab for alcoholism, but hasn't been following his wellness plan or even taking his depression meds. Recently, money was being withdrawn from my account in the middle of the night while I slept, he says he has been gambling, but I am fairly certain there are drugs involved also - found a crack pipe in his pocket Christmas 2007 - Merry F'ing Christmas!!. He isn't working, isn't going to meetings, is depressed, and I was losing my mind. So I finally had to give up hope, I just wish I could turn off the love. VERY lonely right now and missing him which is STOOPID!
Interests
Reading, camping, hanging with my friends (ideally without crying about my marriage or lack thereof).
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sad
November 25, 2008 9:40am
So last night I was feeling good about having closure, but this morning I can't stop remembering the man who rode his bike an hour and a half to …
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Letter to my STBX
November 24, 2008 3:37pm
Dear Doug,
You don't seem to understand how hurt and angry I am, nor do you seem to realize that you fucked everything up for good this …
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Thank You Friends
November 19, 2008 1:19am
I just changed my mood from horrible to ok because of my friends here on DS. I have just finally made the decision that my marriage has to end …
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LOVED LOVED LOVED your response to 'does a guy have a chance' thread.
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Hey Ma' Thanks for thinking about me. Whenever you have a chance, let me know how things are going. I care about you and LOVE U !!!
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Close Codependency
My husband is a recovering alcoholic who isn't recovering too well. I suspect he is smoking crack. I found a pipe back in January he swore that was the end of it. He takes money out of my account in the night while I am sleeping. He suffers from deep dark depression and I can't be sure if he is actually using now or not but I am scared out of my mind. He quit his job 6 months ago and I am the sole breadwinner. I keep trying to make everything O.K but the more I try the worse it gets.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- I used to go to Al-Anon when my husband was drinking. He hasn't had a drink in over a year but I am going back this week because I am getting sucked in to his emotional state again. Trying to fix everything for him.
- Al-Anon Working / Worked
- I have really benefited from Al-Anon but haven't been in about a year. I really need it again and am going back now.
Close Step Families
I have a seven and a half year old stepson who's mother hates me and talks badly about me to him. He has told me "Mommy says your a pig", and "Please don't get out of the car because you know how much Mommy hates you." I have been in his life 5 years and am getting tired of it.
Open Breakups & Divorce
I have just finally legally separated after leaving him or kicking him out so many times and taking him back. I told my sisters and my parents this time to make it real. I am having a hard time with the emotional rollercoaster because I do still love him.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Not Working
- I just kept believing he would fulfill his promises but he can't
- Leave Working / Worked
- Heartbreaking but the only solution
- Love Not Working
- See forgiveness
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- DS helps me do for myself not for him.
- Talking Working / Worked
- I kept not telling my family was going on because then it would be real and I wouldn't be able to cave and take him back. I finally told them because I needed to make it real and finally end the relationship.
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