hazil's Journal

I hope I'm doing this correctly. I have had several reminders to update my goal concerning anger management. I find that I have internalized where the anger originates, really important for me because usually I have just talked or written words like "What's wrong with me?" So I digested for a moment or three moments and came up with two sources ... my impatience to be very general and number two...if I'm having a really crappy day or just a string of  mini-unfortunate events need to happen to trigger my anger outbursts. I now realize I am in control of my REACTION towards crappy events and need to work on the impatience thing. How do I do that? I question myself as I feel the initial 'steam' accumualte and question if the angered response is the right course of action. There are a series of questions I go through to diffuse myself such as for one "What's the big deal?" I am happy to write that I have made progress, small baby steps yet steps toward a healthier outlook from within. I do and probably always will get mad and swear and jump up and down when I stub my toe on say a snapshackle or cleat on a sailboat. I know...wear boatshoes.