socabecky's Journal

Tomorrow is my first day back at school. It also happens that Penny has a doc appt in Corona. So my dad is going to go with her instead of stay here. The first morning she went back to work after she started living here, he made her breakfast and has every damn day since. My first day back to school and he's taking her to the doc. Because of course a 55 year old woman can't go by herself. He does everything for her, he's her freakin slave and it pisses me off, makes me hate her even more, resent her eeven more because he is so busy doing stuff for her and with her I get less time with him. I keep getting more and more depressed because we've decided when we do move in like, 4 months, we're getting 2 places, 1 for me and 1 for them. So now I will see him less than now, which is rare as it is. I hate her. SO SO SO much. Part of me hates myself too because I signed him up for that damn site that they met on.

Tomorrow he and I have an appt. with a family counsleor but I don't even know what to say. I never do. I mean, do I walk in and say "ok, here is my problem ..." ? How do I go about it and what do I do? Well, Penny is coming and she likes to read over my shoulder so now I have to go. UGH! So. Much. Hate.