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I really dont know what to write about. I miss Corey and I dont want to, I want to move on and let go because he has.. he doesnt and never will love me again and sometimes that makes me want to just die. I hate having my heart always hurt, I cant live in the memories forever because they can hurt worse sometimes.
I still want there to be a chance; I am 99.9% sure he doesnt like me, but its that 0.1% that keeps me going.. I dont care if thats silly or not, but it helps.. at least for the moment
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My mom hatese me, all she does is tell me she doesnt trust me and she doesnt understand why I cant just move on.. I wish she knew how hard I'm trying. Something besides Corey is wrong with me, I cant explain it but I just feel down about everything. I hate doing all the things I used to love.. Corey made that better, but now he's gone so I'm all alone again. I guess I just have to grow up and get over it because mom wont listen to me or believe I might have a serious problem
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listen to urself first, dont let ur mom hypnotize u into thinking ur fine if ur not. wat do u think is wrong w/ u?
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idk.. I'm just constantly down about everything and I cant think positive anymore. I don't smile as much and I'm not as energetic
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has anything changed even miniscule since u first started to notice ur chang in mood?
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lol, i just noticed u and i both have a journal entry titled "mom". anyway, srry to go off-topic,now.
when did ur mood first start to change as it has?
I really want to move on and be happy.. I keep thinking, if I'm supposed to move on and I've tried wouldn't it of worked? There has to be something that keeps me clinging to the thought that Corey might come back. Its like I have this gut feeling that says no matter what I think or what he says hes really not over me and he does still love me.. its just with whats happening right now he cant show it.. maybe one day everything will work out. I really hope so, I dont want to feel this bad anymore
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dont let him be your all consuming reason. trust me, the sooner you let go the better. it will take some time but i know you can do it.
Roxas