And I just need, something to keep me movin' on...
October 25, 2008 4:36am
Hello,
I really don't know what to write. Life has become this big, unrecognizable mass of nothingness. I barel have something that makes me …
arienette’s Profile
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arienette
is feeling Horrible
can't cope with the blah.
About Me
I am a junior in college at school outside Philadelphia. I lived in six different states while growing up, but I consider my two home states to be Maine and New Jersey. I have been struggling for a long time, I went to a therapist (because I was having intense panic attacks) for the first time in like 7th grade. I have an older brother who I love and respect. He recently moved to Asia to work with children for a year. My parents are divorced and my mother is remarried (for years) and I have three step siblings. My father has been with the same woman for years. Most of my extended family is from Texas but we're all over the country these days. I want to go to Law school but my grades are terrible. Sooo who knows?
Interests
I love: My little dog, animals, the Boston RedSox, Jonathan Papelbon, horror movies, Maine, the ocean, reading, criminal justice studies (my major), music (all kinds and i am constantly discovering new artists), the Boston Celtics, traveling, Spain, Dallas & Austin Texas, TV shows: It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, Desperate Housewives, Seinfeld, Entourage, Flight of the Conchords, Two and a Half Men, Law&Order SVU, The Office, Friends, Strangers with Candy. I also love movies, horror movies especially. The extent to which I love animals is impossible to describe.
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cymbalta
October 3, 2008 5:40am
well who knows if cymbalta works for me? nothing does. effexor i think was bettrer but the docs related it to my high blood pressure little did that …
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New meds, cutting down on booze, and the addiction.
September 1, 2008 1:26am
Hey all.
I went to my psych in August before we left for a week in Spain. We discontinued the Lexxapro because I honestly believe it was making …
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I keep making these "to do" lists but nothing gets crossed out.
July 22, 2008 4:41am
I have tried to keep a million "journals." Online and on paper. Can't do it. I used to be a good writer in high school. I …
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Close Anxiety
I have suffered from anxiety (general, social, OCD, depression, panic disorder...not all at once for the most part) for about 8 years now. It runs in my family like you wouldnt believe. I am here to help, I have been on so many medications and been through a lot of therapy.
Treatments
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Depends on the situation.
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- BuSpar Not Working
- But I didn't give it enough of a chance..I am considering trying it again.
- Cymbalta Somewhat Helpful
- Confusing...it works alright but isnt as good as Effexor. I was on Effexor for years but had to recently switch medications because my blood pressure was going up not good especially because I am only 20 years old.
- Klonopin Somewhat Helpful
- Helps me on airplanes but is addictive for someone with an addictive personality like my own...also makes you groggy. Ive had friends go to rehab for this stuff so just make sure you dont have tendency to abuse pills.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Ya know how when your doctor prescribes you to a new medicine they say something like "If it makes you feel worse, let me know..." well ive heard that like 20 times and always considered myself too numb to meds after all this time...but this stuff really did make me feel worse...which sucks because i had such hope.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Trazodone Somewhat Helpful
- This was the first "sleeping pill" I was prescribed to..for insomnia. It helped but wasnt strong enough.
- Valium Working / Worked
- I use this for airplanes...knocks me out...but I usually have to take double the amount just because I have a tolerance built up after all these years.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Once again, airplanes. My brother used this and it really helped. He used to play the trumpet in concert in front of large groups and he began getting anxiety that effected his playing...a small dose of xanax really helped him. It also helped my mother through the death of my grandmother a few years ago.
- Zoloft Not Working
- The first antidepressent/anti anxiety I was prescribed to...didnt work but it might for some people. It helped my mother to an extent.
Close Insomnia
I have been an insomniac for 7 years or so. I have been on EVERY sleeping pill..well, most of the popular ones and some extra I'm sure. Sometimes my insomnia comes from no where, sometimes its purely anxiety based, sometimes its alcohol, blahblah etc. But the point is, orginally my insomnia seemed to come from nothing..I was young(er) when it started.
Treatments
- Ambien Somewhat Helpful
- The hallucinations and blackouts were too much. Too often I'd get in bed too late after taking it or get up to go to the bathroom and never go to bed again and wake up and remember nothing. But it helped at first.
- Ativan Somewhat Helpful
- Counting Sheep Not Working
- Lavender Not Working
- Lunesta Somewhat Helpful
- Meditation Not Working
- Music Not Working
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- It works when I am already tired...I read everynight.
- Restoril Not Working
- Rozerem Working / Worked
- I started this stuff a month or two ago. It really is the first thing thats helped me fall asleep without hallucinating/blacking out/etc. and I am not TOO groggy the next day. It makes me YAWN and tired like we are supposed to feel at night..I really am happy with this stuff after 6-7 years of unhappiness.
- Sonata Somewhat Helpful
- Same as Ambien...better though.
- Trazodone Somewhat Helpful
Open Prescription Drug Abuse
ritalin is what has been killing me. snorting it. daily for 3 years. the last year and half has been the worst. the physical complications are what terrfied me the most. ugh. This is the first i've ever really talked about it. I am currently, FINALLY, trying to quit on my own. It sucks.
Open Alcoholism
Eh.
Open ADHD / ADD
Treatments
- Adderall Somewhat Helpful
- abused.
- Concerta Not Working
- Just started. Doesnt work.
- Dexedrine Somewhat Helpful
- Just started this stuff. I won't lie...as a speed lover when i asked to be switched from vyvanse (12 hours is too long) i didnt expect much...when my doc said DEXEDRINE i nearly fell over...it is helpful though..better than concerta, vyvanse, and ritalin.
- Focalin Considering
- Metadate Not Working
- Abuse like ritalin
- Ritalin Not Working
- has caused a lot of problems in my life. Prescribed to 90 mg of methylphenidate a day for 2+ years...whole other story.
- Vyvanse Not Working
- UGH. I finally had the guts to tell my doc that i needed a time release medication (because i was snorting ritalin so much) and he gave me this drug. Not only can i break the capsules open and snort them..they SUCK cos the effects last for like 12 hours so i have to take them so early. UGH.
- Wellbutrin Considering
- I was prescribed for an add-on to my depression/anxiety medication before I was put on ADD medication...I'd give this stuff a try though, if depression is a problem as well as ADD.
Open Cervical Cancer
I don't have cervical cancer, but my grandmother (on my father's side) whom I never knew died at a young age from the disease and as you all know it is often inherited and passed down. I have had scares twice and I am only 20 years old. And I don't have sex.
Treatments
- Colposcopy Working / Worked
- Twice. Both times the results revealed "low grade"changes. Thats the best result you can get really.
- Gardasil Somewhat Helpful
- I force all my friends to get it if they havent because I know the risks of cervical cancer. It was a little too late for me I guess but it wasnt released until I was 19 years old last year. If girls start getting it at a younger age the results should be amazing.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI think my depression is a result of my intense anxiety and insomnia and yadda yadda yadda... in other words, depression isn't my PROBLEM...it is a result of my PROBLEMS. Although I have been diagnosed with major depression. That was years ago.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Somewhat Helpful
- On now. Its okay. Not great. Doesnt work well for anxiety. Which is what I am dying from. Replaced Effexor which was my 'saving grace'...for years...but i had to go off of it because of blood pressure.
- Desipramine Not Working
- Effexor Working / Worked
- May have saved my life. I had intense anxiety, panic disorder, panic attacks. This is the only thing that worked. I was on it for years. I recently had to go off of it because of my blood pressue (it was a bit high, and i am only 20 and not overweight so the concern was understandable). I have not been the same since.
- Lexapro Too Soon to Tell
- Just started. In addition to the Cymbalta i've been on for a year or so. Nothing good so far..but I have high hopes...I think.
- Meditation Considering
- Paxil Not Working
- I was only on it for a short time but it did nothing.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Okay, Mom.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Depends on therapist. But it can be AMAZINGLY helpful.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Obviously it works. But they don't know everything.
- Trazodone Somewhat Helpful
- Good light sleeping pill.
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Hard with ADD
- Zoloft Not Working
- Sugar pill?
Open Diets & Weight Maintenance
I'm not overweight. But I am not in shape and not THIN. I have dealt with anorexia in the past..two severe episodes are marked. In addition, bulimia and binge eating has been a problem I have battled with. My past has caused some physical problems. I can't eat anything that is too acidic. I have not eaten meat for years. This is not because I think it is completely WRONG to eat meat,but I love animals, worked on a dairy farm, and I really don't like the taste much anyways.
Treatments
- Alli Considering
- I am not overweight so I shouldnt (according to the instructions) try it.
- Atkins Diet Not Working
- Hard when you don't eat meat.
- Counting Calories Somewhat Helpful
- Obviously this works but can cause problems for people with eating disorders.
- Eating Healthier Foods Somewhat Helpful
- Eat Less Somewhat Helpful
- EAT LESS? No...who would try that method when attempting to lose weight? Sorry...
- Hoodia Somewhat Helpful
- Trimspa is the only OC diet pill that works to any extent. It hasnt WORKED like it says it will..but it helped control eating a bit and it didn't make me sick like most other OC diet pills.
- Physical Exercise Somewhat Helpful
- Slim-Fast Somewhat Helpful
- South Beach Diet Somewhat Helpful
- Weight Watchers Working / Worked
- The point system is the best. Just be healthy.
Open Vegetarians & Vegans
Type: VegetarianI have been a vegetarian for almost 9 years (since I was 12 years old). My family are big meat eaters and none are vegetarians like myself. I do not hate meat eaters. 99% of the people in my life eat everything from fish to veal. Personally, I love animals so much. Thats the end of the story.
Treatments
- Iron Working / Worked
- Anemia has been a problem.
- Patience Working / Worked
- With others...
- Vitamin B12 Working / Worked
- I take Vitamin B Complex everyday.
Open Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaAnorexia, bulimia, binge eating.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Zoloft Not Working
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