Journal Entry for December 2, 2008
December 2, 2008 8:35pm
Staind
'outside'
And you,Can bring me to my kneesAgainAll the timesThat I could beg you pleaseIn vainAll the timesThat I felt insecureFor …
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STATUS MAY SHOW ONLINE- I FORGET TO SIGN OUT... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cmXGrDmOSLI...i am personally struggling right now with my own demons...but i do my damnest to push them aside and, fight for me, and fight for others...sometimes i forget that i too, am human...sometimes i dont listen to the signs my body gives me to "chill" and when i ignore those signs, i have meltdowns and anxiety attacks...these meltdowns and anxiety attacks are new to me, and i will figure out how to fight off those as well... http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=voT3jGWUh2o
Interests
There are so many things that I am interested in. To name a few: music- hard rock/90's grunge-alternative, drawing, photography, writing & reading poetry, writing short stories, being outside esp at the beach, surrounding myself with beauty and positivity, remaining an advocate for the health and safety of our children, making a difference in someone else's life, making someone laugh or at the least, smile. I am interested in meeting as many survivors as I can- I find them to be true heroes. I also find it very important that I always stay true to myself and that I always face my fears, stay strong, stay open minded and def fight (bust some caps) for what I believe in. AND CONTINUE TO STAY ONTOP OF MY FOREVER LIFE LONG GOAL OF BEING HAPPY:) *my chat is disabled, so dont take it personal if i dont respond:)
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truest song ever
November 29, 2008 9:20pm
"Hand In My Pocket"I'm broke but I'm happyI'm poor but I'm kindI'm short but I'm healthy, yeahI'm high but …
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Support Groups
Close Families & Friends Of Addicts
my father was a functioning alcoholic.
Treatments
- Talking Working / Worked
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
went from an emotionally and physically abusive home as a child right into an emtionally abusive relationship/marriage (that recently turned physically abusive) that lasted for 20 years.
Treatments
Open Alcoholism
recently realized i was drinking to numb myself of my marriage to an alcoholic and drug addict. i was also drinking to numb myself of the memories of the abuse i suffered at the hands and mouth of my mother. i was living in the "if u cant fight em join em" state for way too long!!!
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- after drinking heavily for about 7 years i woke up on 1/16/08 and quit for good. def worked for me.
Open Depression
feelings of sadness- i never talked about it as a kid, cause i really thought i was the only one that felt this way AND now, as an adult i know that so many of us have these same types of feelings, they are normal and nothing to be ashamed of.
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- i do my damnest to surround myself with beauty and to get rid of the negativity and toxins that thrive on draining my energy.
- Talking Working / Worked
- the more i share with others the more i find out we all have so much in common. what may appear on the surface can really be deceiving.
Open Breakups & Divorce
counting the days down till he is legally out of my life for good!
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- Music Working / Worked
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- Talking Working / Worked
- Time Working / Worked
Open Families & Friends of Gays & Lesbians
Many family members and friends of mine are gay/lesbian/bisexual
Open Families & Friends Affected By Suicide
just ask me
Open Family & Friends of Bipolar
Mother is bipolar. Sister just recently diagnosed with bipolar.
Open Panic Attacks
Had my first panic attack on 9/08. Never had a clue the intensity of a panic attack until that day. I was scared to get out of my car and go into work. My ex-husband had caused me great harm a few days prior to the panic attack. I was scared that when i came out of work he would be waiting for me, in or by my car. When i went back to the house to retrieve some items, i again had a panic attack. he had held me against my will in the home a few days prior to that panic attack.
Open Foster Care
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