is feeling OK
I have been heavy all my life. It has colored how I view my agency, my ability as it where, in loosing weight. Lately, I've ballooned to 356. I stand at 5'6". I wear, barely, a size 28 at Lane Bryant. I will begin grad school in Mass. and am ready for a new beginning. I feel as if my weight keeps me insulated from the world; as if I cannot really participate because I fear so much rejection and instead reject. When I begin to exercise I loose weight easily, especially if I do weight training. But it's the motivation to keep going decreases and I sabotage myself.
September 16, 2008 10:55pm
It has been nearly two months since I've last logged in. A lot has happened. First off, I moved to Mass to pursue my graduate …
July 22, 2008 11:13pm
Today has been a shit ass day. Started out bad enough when my inconsiderate sister put the new mattress for the new bed in the floor in the …
July 16, 2008 6:00pm
Today I actively kept in mind my goal of "being comfortable in my own skin." To that end I have parked far away from work and …
July 16, 2008 12:15am
So today begins my odessy. I'm heading out to grad school in August and want to use this as an impetus to change my whole life. I no …
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