Today has been terrible as far as anxiety goes. It is just me and the baby sitting here. She is taking her nap and my heart is pounding, hands are shaking, I can hardley breathe properly and I keep getting lightheaded. I sat here looking up RN's or LNP's in my area, as I have noticed they have more compassion than MD's. It is already 6:45 pm, so I should probably wait until tommorrow to see if I can get some help. I need some help. My anxiety is getting the best of me, and I need to manage it somehow. I need to stay strong and go see someone tomorrow. I have fear of leaving the house under those circumstances. UGH!