snobetty318's Journal

Got to stay sober.  i fell off the wagon again. twice. i got caught up again, damnit. i need to find things to do with my time that are still fun but dont involve drinking. its hard becasue im only 23 and all of my friends are always out drinking. its very hard for me to be out around people who are drinking. if i dont go out then i feel left out and then nobody calls me to go out anymore. but i dont want to go out like that. i think i just need to stay focused. school starts soon and that will make it much easier to stay sober. my friend is up north in a sober living environment and if she were down here i know it would be much easier for me and her too probly. im going to keep my head up and not touch that damn poison. thats what it is exactly. nothing good has come from alcohol for me ever!! not once. why do i do it? its so easy to just say no, right? rawr. help me out someone. i really need some support. nobody around me pushes me to stay sober. only my mom and well, shes my mom. shes doesnt really know the extent of my drinking tho. i am the only one who knows how bad it is. my grandfather (who ive never met) was an alcoholic so my mom is always worried taht i have the potential to go where he did. i dont watn that to happen. im smart and driven. im also easily influenced. i need some support, thats why im here. please let me know how u all are doing this!!!