Aubsy’s Profile

Close Self-Injury

I started cutting back in 8th grade, sometime mid September. It started out as little, like paper cuts. My mom tried to be cool about it but after scratching my entire arm badly she lost her cool. That's when I started cutting my upper leg. I tried to quit many times but failed. It was a year ago when the cutting took total control over me. I ended up cutting my arm and doing it for days. I have noticable scars on my leg, arm and writst now. I am in the process of quitting now.

Treatments

Group Therapy Somewhat Helpful

I joined a DBT therapy and part of the therapy was to go to a group for a number of months. They taught us different strategies and things we could use in our daily life. But the group therapy would be triggering and it felt too impersonal. A lot of things I felt I already knew and other things I wouldn't use. It felt like it was a stupid group thing that did nothing. In the end, even though it didn't do too much for me, I would think about it and that would help me in certain situations.

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

I happen to LOVE my therapist. She is very understanding and feels like a friend. She has helped me see things I didn't see and has also helped me grow without me quite noticing how she was getting me to not cut as much. I am still continuing to see how this therapy works out.

Red Marker Considering

I'm not sure about markers. I think they are better than rubber bands. The thing is is that they make me feel like I cut and they keep my mind thinking that cutting is the way. I'm not sure about this strategy because it can also be noticed, which happened the last time I did it.

Rubber Bands Not Working

I did not like rubber bands at all. I tried them a few times and once, while I tried to quit, I snapped myself but as a way to self injure. They do no work for me because it is cutting without the blade and blood. Plus, I don't like the pain.

Talking Considering

This, I'm also not so sure about. Talking it out feels terrible at the time and I sometimes kick myself in the butt for talking but later I feel good. This depends on the discussion and person. I don't like discussing my problems with others or my feelings. But the times I talk I do, later, feel somewhat better.

Physical Exercise Working / Worked

I went to the gym with a friend and I had the time of my life. Ive had two moments in my life where I felt amazing and didnt want to cut. I felt like those moments when I exercised especially on the treadmill. It definately focuses any energy negative too out of you and makes you feel good about yourself at the same time.

Writing Working / Worked

Writing for me is good for two reasons. One it gets the tension and energy out of you and Two it takes you to another world. It feels magnificent and distracts you.

Close Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS)