Journal Entry for September 1, 2008
September 1, 2008 2:44pm
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About Me
I'm the youngest of three- two older brothers. We're all 7 years apart so we never had much to fight about. I'm a strong believer in equality between men and women and hope to help disestablish some of the U.S.' gender roles. I'm a Fine Arts/English Major and cook in my free time. I try not to define myself as a rape victim- or better yet, let it define me. But it is a huge part of my personality. It affects my views on people and the world greatly, and quite frankly, I think it should. I can be wary, negative, and anxious. These are all side-effects, and all things I am used to though currently I'm seeking to change them.
Interests
I'm interested in food, art, and music basically. Often I've been a counselor to others...now it's me who needs to get counseling. I'm interested in social change. I wish people would be more considerate towards each other. I wish society wasn't so hypersexualized. I want people to be seen as individuals, not bodies. Sometimes I feel like I'm just a body or just sex. It shouldn't be this way. We should not all be so desensitized to the world we've created for ourselves to live in. I'm a Christian, but respect all faiths. I don't feel the need to convert people, only to show love and respect and let that be my testimony to faith- through the way I live my life. I'm interested in seemingly crazy plans like...having a lavender farm. I'll probably never commit to these plans, but they're fun to think of.
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In the middle
July 28, 2008 11:12am
Things seemed to have settled, relationship-wise. He's being more affectionate, more normal. He's bipolar..maybe it's just an excuse I …
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What's Happening
July 21, 2008 11:49am
I feel like I'm losing everything. I've made so much progress and I can't seem to get support from anyone close to me. The closest person …
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Moving Forward
July 13, 2008 11:47pm
I told my mom today I wanted to see a therapist. I actually called and got names for 3 while she was out of town and my dad was at work. She …
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Happy Saturday...it's ugly here. Hoping not to get the hurricane that is possible.
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Celebrate
I am feeling excellent today as well. It is such a wondrous thing to feel this way! Have a great weekend!
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Hey! I see you are feeling excellent....that's excellent!! YAY!
I’m With You
Thanks for being my friend
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Support Groups
Close Rape
I was raped in my next door neighbor's house when I was very young. I have a lot of sensory memories related to it. I still live in the same house, so I can see through my neighbor's window where it happened every time I walk out my door. He was a senior in high school, my neighbor (his cousin) and I were probably around 7. I find it very difficult to say what he did to us- what we saw, heard, and were forced to do- but I'm trying to get help and stop feeling so low..
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Just started therapy the other day. It's making me question my relationship, gives me nightmares, and makes me more anxious..
- Talking Not Working
- It helps but..it's not enough. I feel like I've always been depressed and maybe that's just a chemical thing- but my friends and family can't help me with that.
Close Alopecia Areata
I haven't had my eyelashes for about 5 years. I'm worried that I'll start to lose more hair and it'll spread, as my eyebrows and legs are getting patchy now. I gave up on trying to treat it because everything I used just bothered my eyes.
Open Anxiety
I've always been an anxious person. Sometimes I have panic attacks, other times I feel incredibly nervous. I'm pretty sure it's related to PTSD.
Treatments
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- if I can focus enough, it works.
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