Journal Entry for August 20, 2008
August 20, 2008 10:26pm
I feel so depressed I don't kno where my husband is I feel like crying so much i want hm to come home but I don't kno where he is I'm so …
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Hi! My name is josefina, i am22yrs old. i have two kids neysa 4, nate 3 and to an angel born july.4, 2008 i was 6 weeks and 5 days..This is for my baby:As I sit and remember When you were still a part of me I try to forget... Your life was never meant to be. You were given a life, a soul, a name But now things will never be the same. You were mine to give life to Though only for a while Things had changed... I will never see your smile. Yet my love for you Will never disappear Though your voice, your laugh, I will never get to hear. You will always be my baby Though I've never seen your face. Not a thing in this world Can ever take your place.
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August 20, 2008 10:27am
I am feeling good today i told my husband the way i have been feeling for the past three months and we r gonna work things out i want my …
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my mood
August 14, 2008 5:26pm
I am in such a good mood.....by the way sorry i haven't been on in a while my husband was fixing the computer and i spent the weekend in philly …
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August 6, 2008 7:45pm
well today is my thrid day having my period and its will be my last until next month i love having three day periods lol......I don'y kno y but i …
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August 5, 2008 1:47am
ok well i just got my period and u kno wat that means......i am not sad about i am kinda of reliefed cuz i wanna wait a couple of months......but i …
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That's funny. I was just in Phili myself. Everything is coming along here. I am trying to get things together for school. I am glad you are doing okay. Take care.
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Close Miscarriage
Well here goes on may 2008 dont remember the date i found out i was pregnant...so much was going through my head. Another baby we were going on baby number three.. we have a three year old and four...At first i was nervous about having another one, but than i strated to get exciting. I went for my first sonogram on june.18,2008, they said they want to make sure the baby is attached to the right place...went in the baby is at the right place they said i was 5weeks and 6 days and the baby was ok but they siad that its heart beat was low it was beat 90.....I was so scared but my husband told me don't think about it everything is gonna be just fine. I thought of it and he was right days went by everything was going ok. I was feeling great, until july.4,2008 I got the kids dressed that day went to go visit my grandmother everything was going good at my grandmothers until around 2:30 pm i went to da bathroom and i saw that i was spotting, got scared so i told my grandmother that i was going home cuz my husband was waiting for me.....I told her that cuz i did want her to worry that i was going to the hospital cuz i was bleeding. Well i went to the hospital they checked me gave a pregnacy test siad i was pregnant but they wanted to do a sonogram just incase i said ok do wat u gotta do to make sure that the baby is ok.I saw the doctor at 3pm didn't get the sonogram until like 4 or 5 somthing and after they gave me it they took me into a room and said that the baby heart is not beating, I was speakless i didn't want to believe it.......I lost my baby and worst thing was i couldn't get in contact wit my husband cuz the number he gave me to call him on i lost...so i was in the hospital wit my kids and just found out my baby died....they told my they would have to do a D&C to take my baby out...I finally got incontact wit my husband like around 10pm this was the hardest thing for me to do was tell him we lost the baby...When he arrived at the hospital the doctors told him wat happened He told me he will take the kids home so they can sleep and to call him when i get out of surgery.....Just as he left the other doctor came in and said my baby might be alive, now i was so confussed she said they is too small to see the heart beat and the my hormonal level was really high and that was a good thing they didn't want to take the baby out if the baby had a chance to live so i greed to come back in two days to find out if my baby was still alive. The next day i wake up still spotting later in the afternoon around1 i started to bleed more went to the hospital across da street they took some test they said that im fine they siad that they are wait on a test for the baby and that will determine on how the baby is before they give me a sonogram. The results came in the doctor came over to me and said "It doesn't look good..I'm sorry". My baby was dead, I crawled up in a ball and cryed my eyes out i wanted this baby so badly if only i went to the hospital sooner if only there was something that i could of done to make my baby survive just maybe just maybe he/she would be alive today in my belly...they said that i was 6 weeks and 5days which means my doctor gave me the wrong days. Today i was looking in the closet for some paper work and in one of the folders i found the sonogram of my baby i broke out in tears. I'm mad, hurt, gulty.. my child never got the chance to live i never got the chance to see or touch it or even kiss it
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Close Breast Cancer
my aunt developed breast cancer like 9 or 7 yrs ago well she beat it and is living her life and she did end up getting it again like 4 yrs after when she first got but she is strong women and today she is living her life to the fullest she is a very inspiring person nothing gets in her way i luv that about her
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- Chemotherapy Working / Worked
- Radiotherapy Working / Worked
- Surgery Working / Worked
Open Parenting Preschoolers (3-5)
I have a 4yr old and my son will be 3 at the end of september they really keep me happy
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- Child Time-out Working / Worked
- they may fight me but if they r on it for at least 10 mins they r good sometimes
Open Anemia
Type: Iron Deficiency AnemiaMy son Nathaniel was diagnosed in July with anemia iron deficiency they said he has to take vitamins for three months and than take blood to see if he still has it they said it bad for kids his age to have cuz it cause developmental issues
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- Folic Acid Working / Worked
- he loves them he tells me in da morning mommy i need my medication
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