Label Me! A poem!
August 20, 2008 8:33am
a poem of myself... by myself.
Never deeply look into these eyez they lie
Not telling you the story of the death I die and why
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About Me
I live by the lake, recently quit my job in the Child and Family Service feild as a Social Worker and Family Support Worker to be a truck driver and heavy equipment operator. I love music, poetry, writing, pets, and my favourite book is the bible.
Interests
Hunting, fishing, crafting, painting, listening to music, walking my dog, swimming, teaching my little brother things, being with my man, going on trips, reading, and plants.
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heavenzgirl wrote a discussion post in the Depression support group: Just so u kno.. 4:41pm
I'm still around - from time to time.. I stopped taking my meds and went crazy.. my sister had her baby…
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Who Exactly is Loretta?
July 28, 2008 7:31pm
Hello friends;
My name is Loretta, Loretts, Retts, whatever... I'm a 27 year old aboriganial truck driving social worker and I live in a small …
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It's a bitter world for me.
July 21, 2008 7:28pm
Growing up I was the fat kid. My parents divorced when I was 3 and my dad died when I was 13. I was depressed even as a kid and …
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havent seen you in a long time and just hoping all is well.. hugs you.
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anytime that I am here and you need to talk.. just call on me.. Im sending positive thoughts your way.. Y'Vonne
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hugs and blessings to you girl...
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No problem : ) Everyone's welcome in the depression forum. We're a mixed bag! xx
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you are in my thoughts and prayers
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Close Infertility
: Tubal IssuesTwo tubal pregnancies... both tubes ruptured/removed. I have no fallopian tubes. I'm 27 years old and unable to conceive. I've always wanted children.
Treatments
- Adoption Considering
- I was approached by a pregnant woman who wanted to give her baby up for adoption.She had me bring her to her first ultrasound.She's had 7 abortions in the past and has 3 kids.I was watching her babies in the hall while she was going to her appointment & she came out & said she had time to abort. She was undecided she said & never told me otherwise.She asked if I wouls babysit her kids for a few days while she went out of town.I found out later that she had an abortion & tied her tubes then
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- I'm on 40mg daily now and without them I'm very depressed and deeply saddened and always greiving.
- In Vitro Fertilization Considering
- I have medical insurance to cover drugs and I have OHIP coverage for the proceedure. Just need more time to consider and to be at my healthiest both physically and emotionally.
- Metformin Working / Worked
- I'm taking for PCOS. 500mg 3x daily. My periods have regulated to some extent.
- Progesterone Working / Worked
- Too to brong on periods after months without having any period.
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI've been living with depression for 10 years. Some days are harder than others and the good days are hell. I'm unable to conceive children and I'm a 27 year old woman. I struggle just to live with myself and live in this world of happiness just beyond my reach and lonliness already at my door.
Treatments
- Celexa Somewhat Helpful
- I'm still taking Celexa, my dose has changed over the years from 10mg to 20 to 30 and now 40mg. Sometimes I have a decrease in sex drive but all of the time I can still feel depressed and so it's not 100% effective.
- Paxil Not Working
- Stopped as it was ineffective after some time.
- Trazodone Not Working
- Doctor discontinued this medication for me as I was starting to hear voices. At first I thought I was just having bad thoughts but then I decided for sure that they were voices. Talking with my doctor confirmed they were voices (hallucinations) and I was taken off this drug. The voices were telling me bad things - like to kill myself and how and why, etc... very bad voices.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- It always helps to write a letter to God or to someone I love, even if the letter never gets delivered. I write poetry and that helps to - although it sometimes is very dark and depressive
Open Fibromyalgia
Treatments
- Acupuncture Working / Worked
- Works very well when I sleep during the treatments. During this sleep I receive the best healing.
- Heat Somewhat Helpful
- Heat and Ice therapy sometimes helps.
- Oxycodone Working / Worked
Open Anxiety
I've had anxiety for quite sometime. I don't even remember when it started but certain life events have made it worse. My infertility, my family, car accident, depression, etc.
Treatments
- Ativan Working / Worked
- I take 1mg tablets, 2-3 at a time when I'm having panic attacks or I feel very anxious. Only problem is you can't really do anything after you take them because they cause drowsiness.
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- Box breathing where you trace out a box with your finger and focus ONLY on the box and your breathing, each side is one breath either in our out. ONe box is two breaths in and two breaths out.
Open Adoption
My partner and I have been trying to have a baby for 7 years. I got pregnant twice and both were ectopic pregnancies and I lost bost babies and I also lost my fallopian tubes so I am unable to conceive. We want desperately to be parents and are considering adoption for many reasons.
Open Chronic Pain
I was involved in a car accident in 2007 and have since suffered mild to severe chronic pain.
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Working / Worked
- Naproxen Not Working
- Oxycodone Working / Worked
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