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"WHAT DO YA DO WHEN YOU LIVE IN A SHOE...MOVE TO A BOOT AND GET LACED...LOL"
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About Me
HI...WELL WHAT TO SAY..I AM A VET NURSE BUT I AM ON DISABILITY NOW AND HAVE BEEN FOR THE LAST 5 YRS. THREE YRS AGO I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH THIS DREADFUL FIBROMYALGIA..I HATE THIS DISEASE WITH A PASSION..EVERY MONTH I SEEM TO BE DEVELOPING NEW SYMPTOMS..I AM ON 27 PILLS PER DAY..THE NEW SYMPTOM I AM DEALIN WITH NOW IS MY HANDS..GOD THEY SWELL AND HURT SO BAD I WANT TO CUT THEM BOTH OFF..!!! I HAVE A DAUGHTER SHE IS 27 YRS OLD AND SHE IS MY ROCK AND I AM HERS. I JUST GOT OUT A RELATIONSHIP THAT WAS GOIN NO WHERE..I AM A ROADTRIP JUNKIE..I LOVE TO PICK UP AND GO..I LOVE ANIMALS, I LOVE TO READ AND ALSO WRITE MY OWN SHORT STORIES. MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS ARE ALSO MY SUPPORT. I COLLECT ANYTHING WITH MARILYN MONROE ON IT..I LOVE HER!!! I LOVE TO GO CAMPIN, LOVE SWIMMIN I AM LIKE A DOLPHIN IN THE WATER LOL..JUST LOVE IT. I LIKE TO HELP OUT..I AM A GIVER NOT A TAKER..LOVE TO GIVE..LOVE TO LISTEN..I USE TO COUNSEL TEENS..AND I STILL DO THAT ON THE SIDE..IT BREAKS MY HEART TO SEE A TEEN THAT IS TROUBLED AND FROM A TROUBLED HOME. I AM JUST REAL..I TELL IT LIKE IT IS SO ANYTHING ELSE YOU WANT TO KNOW JUST ASK!! PEACE JESSEOX PS. ONE THING I DID IN MY LIFE THAT I CAN LAUGH AT NOW IS I MARRIED AND DIVORCED THE SAME MAN TWICE...LOL...!!!! I AM ALLERGIC TO MARRIAGE..I AM JUST A FREEBIRD!!! JOX
Interests
READING, WRITING, CAMPING, NASCAR, SWIMMING, ROADTRIPS, CHILLEN WITH FAMILY AND FRIENDS..AND MOSTLY ANIMALS!!! PEACE JESSEOX
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I'm backkkk...and I didn't win shit but....I have the cold from hell so life is normal lol...I missed you too my friend...V
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I spelled it wrong...Nortriptylin
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Get your Dr, to write a RX for "Nortriptalyn". I've had this horrible desease for 13 yrs. I had tried it a long time ago, but gave up on it because of side effects. I tried it again last Dec. I've been getting the best sleep ever in 13 yrs. They use it for depression. But at a lower dose for pain control and sleeping, headaches, stomach problems. I started with 25mg. for the 1st week, then 50mg. for 2 weeks. Now 75mg. about 1-2 hrs. before bed. I'm like a new person. Sleep makes the daily pain more tolerable. Just an idea, but you can't give up on it like I did the first time. I felt very "flat" for the first month or so, but that goes away. Sorry this is so long. Should have sent it in messages. xoxo
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Good morning sweetie, hope you are ok...I happened to spot you online.... Love you! xoxoxo
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Close Fibromyalgia
Well in 1995..I fell asleep at the wheel of my 79 chevy truck..and rolled about six times and landed upside down and was trapped from the waist down for over 2 hrs. I walked away with bruises...now 3 yrs ago I was diagnosed with FM...the worst case my doc has seen yup all 18 pressure points pain 24/7...I can't do what I love which is look after animals I am a Vet Nurse...I can't do much..I take 27 pills a day..its sickening. I am hopin to at least get normal soon!!! PEACE JESSEOX
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- Cyclobenzaprine Working / Worked
- I like this drug..it works...really well especially when I get a FM flair up..and also my tremors it helps with those.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- It just keeps me level..my rages I don't have those anymore. No side effects I like it.
- Heat Working / Worked
- I LOVE PUTTING HEAT ON MY ACHING BODY IT FEELS GREAT....I USE ALOT OF A535 ALSO...ACTUALLY IT SHOULD BE MY NEW PERFUME BY NOW..I ALWAYS SMELL LIKE IT...LOL!!!!
- Hydromorphone Working / Worked
- This drug so far I like the best...I take one in the morn and one at nite..12 hr release caps..18mg. The side effects are constipation with me..damn I hate that.
- Lyrica Not Working
- I hate this drug...it made me worse.
- Morphine Not Working
- I can't stand Morphine..it makes me feel numb..and anxious.
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
A MAN THAT I WAS LIVING WITH FOR SIX YRS VERBALLY AND MENTALLY ABUSED ME FOR MOST OF THOSE YRS..IF I TRIED TO LEAVE HE WOULD THREATEN TO KILL ANYONE THAT I LOVED..INCLUDING MY ANIMALS. I FINALLY FINALLY DID GET HIM TO MOVE OUT AND OUT OF MY LIFE ONLY TO HAVE HIM BREAK INTO MY HOME..HE RAPED ME, BEAT ME AND ROBBED ME...I THOUGHT I WAS GOIN TO DIE FOR SURE...I STILL DON'T REMEMBER HOW I GOT AWAY FROM HIM..!!!! JESSE
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- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- THIS DRUG IS REALLY GOOD..MY FAV..IT CALMS ME DOWN..AND I DON'T GET PANIC ATTACKS LIKE I USED TO!!!
- Effexor Working / Worked
- IT KEEPS MY MOODS LEVEL..I DON'T RAGE...AT ALL..AND I RARELY IF NEVER CUT ANYMORE!!!!
- Music Working / Worked
- MUSIC IS MY FAVORITE DRUG!!!!
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- I HAD COUNSELING FOR 2 YRS IT WAS GREAT...MY COUNSELOR IS ALSO A SURVIVOR OF RAPE!!!
- Reading Working / Worked
- I LOVE TO READ AS WELL AS WRITE...READING ABOUT SIMILAR STORIES HELPED!!!
- Talking Working / Worked
- I ATTENDED A MONTH LONG COURSE CALLED "WOMAN EMPOWERING GROUP" IT REALLY HELPS TO TALK ABOUT IT!!!
- Restoril Working / Worked
- WHEN I CANT SLEEP CUZ MY THOUGHTS ARE RACING AND I AM HAVING FLASHBACKS ETC...THIS DRUG HELPS ME FALL RIGHT TO SLEEP..I LOVE IT!!!
Open Rape
WELL AS IN MY STORY ABOVE, THE MAN I WAS WITH FOR SIX YRS..RAPED ME, BEAT ME AND ROBBED ME. I HAVE ALSO BEEN DATE RAPED SEVERAL TIMES.."NO" MEANS NOTHING TO SOME MEN. THIS SAME MAN WHO RAPED ME, BEAT ME..ALSO BEAT ME ONCE SO BAD THAT THE BABIES I WAS CARRYING (HIS) HAD TO BE SURGICALLY REMOVED FROM ME...HORRIFIC THATS ALL I CAN SAY!!! JESSEOX
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- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- I WENT TO COUNSELING FOR 2 YRS..IT HELPED ME THE MOST..MY COUNSELOR WAS ALSO RAPED.
- Talking Working / Worked
- I ATTENDED MANY GROUPS FOR WOMAN EMPOWERMENT..IT HELPED ME ALOT.
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD)I WAS DIAGNOSED WITH BPD IN MY EARLY 20'S. I HAD PANIC ATTACKS, I FELT UNREAL, I RAGED, I DID NOT LIKE GOING OUT IN THE PUBLIC..I FELT ALONE DIFFERENT, AND I HATE TO BE ALONE....SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE I AM 2 PPL...IT BOTHERS ME...I CUT BECAUSE OF IT...AND BECAUSE OF MY OTHER AILMENTS...THE RAPE. I AM HOPING TO UNDERSTAND MORE ABOUT IT BEING ON HERE..AND IT HELPS TO HEAR ABOUT OTHER PPLS STORIES. PEACE JESSEOX
Treatments
- Clonazepam Working / Worked
- This drug calms me...!!!!
- Effexor Working / Worked
- Works wonders..I dont take it for depression..I am not a depressed person...it helps my rages..and cutting.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Lots of counseling...also I attended groups with other woman of Rape..and this disorder...it was great.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I WENT THROUGH SIX YRS OF PHYSICAL AND MENTAL ABUSE WITH A MAN I DATED FOR 6 YRS...I STILL GET FLASHBACKS..AND MAYBE I CAN HELP OTHERS ON HERE. PEACE JESSEOX
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- Abuse Counseling Working / Worked
- YES WORKED FANTASTIC!!!
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- I HAD TO FORGIVE...BUT I WILL NEVER FORGET..!!!!
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- GREAT GROUP OF WOMAN I MET..WAS EXCELLENT!!!
- Talking Working / Worked
- IT HAPPENED FROM FOR SIX YRS..AND STILL TO THIS DAY IT IS GOOD FOR ME TO TALK ABOUT IT.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- WORKS WONDERS!!!!
Open Migraine Headaches
I HAVE SUFFERED WITH MIGRAINE HEADACHES SINCE THE AGE OF 12...I GET THEM SO BAD THAT I BANG MY HEAD AND PULL AT MY HAIR..I FINALLY HAD A CT SCAN THIS YR....AND I WAS TOLD I HAD CLUSTER MIGRAINES THE WORST HEADACHE ON THIS EARTH. JESSEOX
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- Caffeine Working / Worked
- COFFEE DOES WORK FOR ME..IF I CATCH THE MIGRAINE RIGHT AT THE BEGINNING.
- Naproxen Working / Worked
- IT HELPS WITH A SLIGHT HEADACHE.
- Zomig Working / Worked
- THIS DRUG WORKED THE BEST FOR ME..IT WORKED IN A MATTER OF SECONDS..JUST BY PUTTING IT ON MY TONGUE..BUT BECAUSE I TAKE EFFEXOR I CAN'T TAKE ZOMIG ANYMORE.
Open Healthy Relationships
IM JUST WANTING TO TRY THIS GROUP OUT..TO SEE IF I WILL LEARN ANYTHING NEW..I AM JUST RECENTLY SINGLE..AND I DON'T WANT TO FALL INTO MY OLD HABITS AND CHOOSE ANOTHER GUY THAT NEEDS FIXING..ETC...I ALWAYS SEEM TO PICK MEN THAT ARE NO GOOD FOR ME. JESSEOX
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