nanikalah's Journal

As of this Friday, it will be three weeks since I have thrown up. I can't believe how strong I am going on this thing. I can't say it enough how Macrobiotics has really helped me. My thing now is... I really have to limit my food intake. I have realized that I can be eating all good things like, brown rice instead of pasta and veggies instead of ice cream. But... if I eat too much of that stuff, its still overload shock on my stomach and the "full feeling" makes me want to puke. However... I still have not given in to the feeling!! :-) It's going good. So now what I've been doing is, instead of making a lot of food anticipating left overs (but then just eating it all), I just make enough for that meal. Did that yesterday and with the brown rice I'm cooking now.

As far as my social life is going... I feel so much more relaxed now that I've developed this, "I don't care" attitude. Some people in this world are just going to be mean and miserable. My boyfriend always tells me to just brush it off my shoulders and I never would... but now that I'm beginning to its like... who the hell cares. Screw em. They can be miserable if they want, but as far as I'm concerened, my life is going just peachy, and no mean, miserable, unhappy person is going to mess that up for me. So yea.. I'm doing pretty good right now. I'm hangin in there :-) Upped my progress to 20%!