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3/19/07
I'm kinda new to this and not sure how all this works, but I'm hoping to be able to find some people that can relate to what I'm going through and maybe give each other moral support.
My husband is leaving me for another woman after being married for 13 years. He still lives here, till June (till the school year is over), because we both agreed that it would be in our son's best interest not to find out till school is out. Our son has ADHD and any changes are very difficult for him. We've found a school for him that specializes in kids with ADHD, and he's made sooo much progress there, that we don't want to ruin that for him. I'm hoping that the 3 months of summer break will be enough time for him to get used to the idea that Daddy isn't with us anymore and for him to be able to deal with it without being overwhelmed. In the mean time I'm trying to act as if nothing is wrong, so that he doesn't start asking questions. It is so hard not to break down crying in front of him, usually once he's in bed I go in my bedroom and break down and cry myself to sleep. I have never had to be on my own and I'm afraid and worried about how I'm going to be able to support my son and myself, and afraid of being alone the rest of my life. Most of our mutual friends don't talk to me anymore since they found out he's leaving, except for one couple, and they think I should just get a grip on things and move on. That is easier said then done. My self esteem has hit rock bottom, I'm doubting myself and my abilities, I can't even think straight right now to make simple day to day decisions sometimes. I don't enjoy any of my hobbies right now, and just want to disapear in a whole most of the time. I'm constantly crying when I'm by myself, I get frustrated over little stupid stuff, question everything anybody is saying to me or about me, etc. My husband says he still wants us to remain good friends, but I don't know how that can work, when I can't stand the thought of seeing him with his new woman, and she would be there as well whenever we would go somewhere togther like fishing, or bowling, etc. Right now it just hurts soo bad, it feels like someone ripped my chest open and tore my heart out. :(
I'm kinda new to this and not sure how all this works, but I'm hoping to be able to find some people that can relate to what I'm going through and maybe give each other moral support.
My husband is leaving me for another woman after being married for 13 years. He still lives here, till June (till the school year is over), because we both agreed that it would be in our son's best interest not to find out till school is out. Our son has ADHD and any changes are very difficult for him. We've found a school for him that specializes in kids with ADHD, and he's made sooo much progress there, that we don't want to ruin that for him. I'm hoping that the 3 months of summer break will be enough time for him to get used to the idea that Daddy isn't with us anymore and for him to be able to deal with it without being overwhelmed. In the mean time I'm trying to act as if nothing is wrong, so that he doesn't start asking questions. It is so hard not to break down crying in front of him, usually once he's in bed I go in my bedroom and break down and cry myself to sleep. I have never had to be on my own and I'm afraid and worried about how I'm going to be able to support my son and myself, and afraid of being alone the rest of my life. Most of our mutual friends don't talk to me anymore since they found out he's leaving, except for one couple, and they think I should just get a grip on things and move on. That is easier said then done. My self esteem has hit rock bottom, I'm doubting myself and my abilities, I can't even think straight right now to make simple day to day decisions sometimes. I don't enjoy any of my hobbies right now, and just want to disapear in a whole most of the time. I'm constantly crying when I'm by myself, I get frustrated over little stupid stuff, question everything anybody is saying to me or about me, etc. My husband says he still wants us to remain good friends, but I don't know how that can work, when I can't stand the thought of seeing him with his new woman, and she would be there as well whenever we would go somewhere togther like fishing, or bowling, etc. Right now it just hurts soo bad, it feels like someone ripped my chest open and tore my heart out. :(
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Well if you've hit bottom there is nowhere to go but up.I'm not being flippant just making a point.I've been there to.Crying is part of the healing process don't hold it in.There is a great little book called Healing a Broken Heart by Dick Innes,I recomend it highly.It really helped me.You can find it on ebay.You are going to be alright.I'm still praying for you.
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