Journal Entry for July 24, 2008
July 24, 2008 11:47pm
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Goal End Date is Aug 13, 08 61 days ago.
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Tiredofthesickness
is feeling OK
Is there a word for blah?
About Me
I am a lion at heart. I have seen the real me. I am a confident, peaceful, and fun person at my core. Yet I have had a problem with depression since as long as I can remember. I served in Iraq 2003-2004. I have a beautiful wife who is supportive of me and has fought to help me overcome my PTSD and depression. I have a beautiful daughter that always brings peace to my heart. I enjoy martial arts, firearms, exercising, video games and spending time with my family. I love to hike in the mountains because it is a very peaceful and spiritual experience for me. I am tired of hating myself everyday. I am tired of feeling like I am a failure and that I will never amount to anything. I am currently 100% disabled through the VA, And attending weekly treatment.
Interests
Martial Arts Hiking Reading Meditating Throwing Knives Shooting Firearms. Watching Movies with the wife and My beautiful daughter
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Goal End Date is Aug 31, 08 43 days ago.Current Weight (Lbs)225 -
Support Groups
Close Depression
: Clinical (Major) DepressionI was raised by a father who constantly beat me, put me down, and pretty much tried to make me feel as if I was worth nothing. I was molested by my 24 year old cousin when I was 8. I think that experience really cemented the idea that I was worthless. I never stood up for myself. I went to Iraq and saw true evil. I was also the whipping boy of my platoon because I have no self-esteem and never stood up for myself. I have tried killing myself. I would have done it by now if I did not have a daughter to raise now. I feel I will never get better. I don't know what to do.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I see a psychologist weekly at the VA. I think it just keeps the gun out of my mouth.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- When I am really stressed out I can just free write in my journal and it helps a little.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- I try to apply this but the negative thinking is more powerful
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- It keeps me level headed. Not happy but not sad Just there
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Exploring this beautiful self help tool
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I am an Iraqi veteran and don't really want to talk about the evils I still have haunting me from there right now
Treatments
- Effexor Working / Worked
- Keeps me balanced
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
Open Anxiety
The war in Iraq has made me so that I am constantly on guard. I am waiting for an attack any minute.
Treatments
- Acupuncture Somewhat Helpful
- Breathing Exercises Somewhat Helpful
- Klonopin Working / Worked
- keeps me from freaking out
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Still learning this skill
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- I have trouble thinking positively because something inside thinks I am not worth anything.
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
Open Stress Management
I have suffered from depression my entire life. I have PTSD from my service in Iraq. I do not know how to effectively vent stress without becoming destructive. Hating myself is another way I express stress. Im just a fucking mess.
Treatments
- Music Working / Worked
- I listen to healing music while I sleep
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- I lift weights, I run, I hike in the mountains, I train in martial arts. I feel great till the endorphines wear off.
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Working / Worked
Open Anger Management
I am an Iraqi veteran. When you come from a place where anger and violence keeps you alive, well its kind of hard to unlearn a life saving habit. The funny thing is that I have never hit my wife, but I beat the living hell out of myself everyday. I get so angry at myself when I make mistakes and go off. I break doors, I hit trees, I used to get in a lot of fights that ended with me choking the person. Ya pretty tired of it
Open Back Pain
Treatments
- Acupuncture Somewhat Helpful
- Cupping is actually much better.
- Flexeril Working / Worked
- Helps
- Heat Working / Worked
- Good stuff
- Ibuprofen Working / Worked
- Bah
- Physical Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Bah
- Stretching Working / Worked
- Always a good thing
- TENS Working / Worked
- Love this thing
Open Fitness Goals
Type: Maintain a workout scheduleI am held back by my depression I believe. I keep trying to stay on a schedule but then I get depressed and stop.
Treatments
- Hiking Working / Worked
- Holy cow this kicks your butt
- Martial Arts Working / Worked
- At least 2 days a week my Sensei pushes me past my limit.
- Running Working / Worked
- It works its just hard to keep it up, especially with so many people telling me its bad for your knees and ankles in the long run
- Weight Training Working / Worked
- It works but I have to be careful because I have back problems and sometimes that pisses me off and I stop
Open Veterans
100% disabled due to my PTSD. How do you turn it off?
Open War in Iraq
2003-2004 Stationed at the BIAP
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