Journal Entry for October 31, 2008
Did it. Fuck it was hard.
Christmas?
LOL
is feeling Horrible
I was actually starting to feel ok again. Then a horrible person got to me and ruined it all
Recently: 5 hugs received, 3 hugs given more …
So much going on it'd take some serious work to sort it. Im not much, just me. That's never enough, even for myself. "We write a new chapter, but does anything change?"
Music, it drowns me. Writng, it fills me. Photography, reveals truths.
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I was actually starting to feel ok again. Then a horrible person got to me...…
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Did it. Fuck it was hard.
Christmas?
LOL
So iv not cut, but god its bin hard. So hard...
Iv been constantly held down by this over bearing weight of doubt and lack of confidence, a …
So im finally gona be seein sum1 about my problems. Start next monday. I rly hope it works, i really want to feel good inside, i just don't know …
Im feelin pretty crap atm. Sarah killed herelf and i feel rly guilty, back at school and although its good to get out the house, its rly to only go …
i did complete my goal. but i was away so couldn't update.
i really really almost cut last week. but i didn't. i used a rubber bad and …
Howdy! How's your day going? I'm over here decorating for Christmas, have the house to myself this morning. *does happy dance* Love Christmas time!
*hugs* ya! x
ah yay! x
im okai thanks and you babe? x
*huggles* heya babe...long time no see...x
Im a 16 year old girl anf i hate my life most of the time. Iv got no true friends who i can rely on and trust and i hate my family life. I have no confidence due to constant never ending bullying in my life. I spend every day wondering why im here and what the point of anything i do is. I hate myself.
I live in a small village wer i went to a small school, wer everyone was friends it was all nice sumthin out of a fairy tale. Then i went to high school and it all went bad...
I started self harm when i was about 12. And iv never really stopped. Iv gone a few moths without it, but it always comes back. I hate that i do it, but i jst cnt stop...
i just get really nervous all the time.
My dad mainly. He brings me down all the time and makes me feel worthless. My mum is depressed and she makes me feel guilty.
Cannot be bothered writin anything
I get really dizzy alot of the time. Just standin up can cause and i get like white light in my eyes and my legs can't hold me up. It passes within few moments, but its a frequent occurance.