Chrissy614's Journal

Although I really appreciate all the good wishes and hugs from the members on this website, I really wish people would stop assuming he must be cheating on me.  Not all marriages end because of infidelity.  I know now that he's been unhappy for the last 10 years and stuck around until the kids were older.  I'm as positive as I can be that there is no other woman yet.  Not to say there won't be in the future, but that was not the reason our marriage fell apart.  Sometimes I wish it was because then I would at least have a reason and I could be angry and move on.  He's searching for happiness that he hasn't had being married to me.  I'm as much to blame as he is but I've tried to make ammends for my part in the destruction of our marriage.  It was too little too late and the damage was done.  There is resentment he's harboring and anger and until he learns to let the past go, we have no future.  I let the past go when I decided my marriage was the most important thing to me.  I decided all the anger, resentment and heartache that I had been demonstrating throughout our marriage was no longer important and that saving our marriage was.  But as I said, for him it was too late.  All I can do now is hope that we can slowly work our way back to each other - and I mean slowly.  I've got to show him that the past is over and the future has great possibilities.  I ask everyone to please don't always assume a spouse must be cheating in order for a marriage to end.  Sometimes people really do just fall out of love when resentment and anger become the norm.