deathlydepressed’s Profile
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deathlydepressed
is feeling Horrible
It is hard to believe that my mom has been gone for 28 days. Most days it doesn't feel real, then boom it hits me like a ton of bricks
About Me
I am 40 yrs old. I am on disability for PTSD and Severe Depression. I am a survivor of all types of abuse, beatings from my alcoholic dad and emotional abuse from him. be raped by my sister's boyfriend at the time. Being molested for yrs with my other sister's husband and I lost my virginity from him. my family doesn't believe that he did anything to me and whatever they do think that happened they have blamed me for yrs. I haven't gotten over it. my hang up is that I just want them to believe me and that it happened to me.
Interests
right now i am too depressed to have interests. I love animals. I love the beach but i never go. which is sad since I live 10 minutes away from several of the top ten beaches in the US. I used to love to walk.
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Recent Activity
August 28
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deathlydepressed gave lostndhelp a Hug 3:15pm
not so good....have a safe holiday…
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deathlydepressed and lyn24 are now friends 2:58pm
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deathlydepressed gave Mandy67 a Hug 12:10pm
Hope you are doing well. Have a safe holiday.…
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deathlydepressed updated their status 12:05pm
It is hard to believe that my mom has been gone for 28 days. Most days it...…
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deathlydepressed gave downbutholdingon a Hug 12:03pm
hope you are doing ok. I haven't been on for quite some time. Take care.…
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Thanks for the greetings. I have been away from this site way too long. Hope you are doing well and have a great weekend. Mandy
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Big hugs and big kisses have a nice weekendxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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Thanks for your advice and your hug take carexxxxxxxxxxx
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well hello stranger how are you
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like my new picture? hope you are doing well
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Support Groups
Close Sexual Abuse
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- Diovan HCT Somewhat Helpful
- Lamictal Somewhat Helpful
- Xanax Somewhat Helpful
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have severe depression and anxiety and I was sexually abused and raped as a child. I am now 40 yrs old. I live in fl. I am so tired of being depressed. It is frustrating.
Treatments
- Lexapro Somewhat Helpful
- i am a little better but not really. I am still unable to work
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I can't afford to see one on a regular basis so I am not able to get the help that I need
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- I have one friend/my roommate. she tries but she doesn't really understand. she just thinks she does. which that makes it worse
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
My dad was an alcoholic and all growing up until he killed himself I dealt with verbal and emotional and physical abuse from him and I live the residual affects everyday and it is not getting any better. after he died I was also sexually abused and raped.
Treatments
- Group Therapy Not Working
- i went for a few months until they cancelled it and I don't know another one in my area. i was really upset about that too
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- i can't afford to go on a regular basis.
Open Panic Attacks
I get panic attacks when I feel like I am not in control of the situation. Or when I am around few to alot of people whether I know them or not. I second I am ok the next I am in a full blown panic attack and I hate taking xanax because it makes me tired. I am supposed to take 1 mg 3 times a day. and I feel like a zombie and I just want to sleep. plus I have severe depression, ptsd, sexual abuse and rape issues. So because of that I have problems with males in authority.
Treatments
- Xanax Somewhat Helpful
- it helps when i take it some times but not always. it makes me too tired.
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