He's beautiful and he's mine. :)
August 4, 2008 10:04pm
So, my new romance with Cale has added a spark of excitement to my life lately. Always a good thing. We're oficially going out. And since I'm …
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About Me
I'm a painter. Theres nothing like locking yourself in a room for 8 hours with enough food and painkillers so the only reason you have to get up is to go to the bathroom. When I paint I can forget everything. My focus is on the brushstroke, the color, the line, and nothing else matters at that point. Thats what passion means to me, and its what I have going for me.
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GottaBreathe changed their mood to Bad 8:47pm
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GottaBreathe changed their mood to OK 8:47pm
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GottaBreathe gave this2willpass a Hug 8:46pm
Hey, I feel your pain. I've been there myself. Rape sucks. Depression sucks. Stress sucks. But I'm here…
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GottaBreathe replied to this2willpass’s discussion post wishsi it didnt hurt like this does in the Depression support group 8:44pm
Being alone definitely makes feeling alone a lot worse. I'm here if you ever need a shoulder to rant/cry…
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GottaBreathe asked for advice: I suck at relationships because I'm too fucked up. in the Depression Supporters support group 2:26pm
So I've been with this guy for a while. And we're having some problems, or at least I'm just questioning…
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July 23, 2008 1:29pm
So I finally got the guts to ask my mom for a counselor and shit. She took me to a fucking church counseling. I got the therapist polarly opposite …
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Today
July 19, 2008 3:47pm
I feel a lot brighter today. Yesterday I made two art pieces! I'm so proud of mysefl cause they actually look good, not like the other stuff …
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Summer might be summer after all?
July 18, 2008 9:35pm
Righty o. So the guy I like is coming over tommorow. I'm so happy! We talked on the phone twice for half an our each, and neither of us are phone …
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Just to let you know you are in my thoughts. Love Ducke
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Hey! have a hug .. xx
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thanks for the birthday wishes on the journal! very much appreciated =]
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There are so many tv shows and reports on bullying, I wonder that they don't pay attention to being shy. I was so shy at your age, my heart would pound and my face would turn red if I had to face a crowd or just walk past a group of people I didn't know. I married the opposite, the life of the party, and I think that got me over it. People paid attention to me in what seemed like a nice way to get to him. Then I started to sell insurance, I had to go out and meet lots of people I didn't know. What I am saying is that you will probably out grow it. I also lived in a very small town, in fact a village in England. Everyone knew everything about everyone. Of course I was too young when I left to find that bothersome. I left when I was 12. Of course coming here combined with the shyness was pretty difficult. I think shyness has a lot to do with fear. So ask yourself what is the worst thing that can happen. In general our worst fear is that we will be laughed at or ridiculed, but that really does not happen, few people are really that cruel. Hope you have a good week, Duckie xx
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sorry you dont hear from me often ...i have been overloaded with grandchildren visiting and on sunday my son's teens are coming....it's a big deal around here since we only get them for a week or so in the summer...he doesn't come to see me much....he is busy with his life.....he does call sometimes...that is so important......i still go to my moms on the 6th of august and will be happy to come home to hugs and news of your exploits and creations...i am going to sculpt a new fat lady when i get back...have four pieces that need to be fired and i wil pay to get them fired i hope next month.....good vibes
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Close Depression Supporters
I'm hurting. I want so much to be happy and I try my hardest to do something about my depression but nothing seems to make things much better. All is said in my journal entries.
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- Crying Not Working
- Its a relief, and it feels really good to, but most of the time I end up feeling even more alone.
- Music Too Soon to Tell
- When I listen to music that I can relate to in my experiences it leads to crying. Which makes me feel alone. But at least with the music I have that many other people have gone through what I'm going through.
- Patience Not Working
- Patience does nothing.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Talking really helps me vent out my frustration. The only problem? Not really anyone to talk to.
Close Depression
Type: Post Partum DepressionI'm depressed, lonely, and just cant escape the hopelessness I sometimes feel in my life. If I cant be happy then can I at least have someone to relate to?
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- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- When I meditate I can program my mind to block out the painful things in my life. And it'll be helpful for a couple months but when I am triggered to think about it then everything comes crashing down. Its a temporary relief.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Writing is relieving to me.
Open ADHD / ADD
I have ADD and it makes it very difficult to pay attention in my classes, especially math. I'm joining this group in hopes that I can get more information on my condition.
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- Adderall Working / Worked
- The Aderall works great, I take it two times a day during school. One when I wake up, one in the afternoon. Its only short term though, but good enough to pay attention in school. Mild side effects. Makes me a bit hyper.
- Concerta Not Working
- Hated this medicine. It would make me drowsy and tired and I would go to sleep at 9 after I got home from school. It helped but I couldnt stand the side effects.
- Strattera Not Working
- I took this but it didnt do anything. No effects, no side effects either.
Open Shyness
I just have a problem being assertive. I'm not much of a people person. I just want to overcome my fears.
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- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- People here are really supportive and it helps me alot that someone understands.
- Self-esteem Not Working
- Tried reading things on how to boost my confidence, didnt work. I cant really pretend to be a social person when I'm really not.
Open Depression - Teen
I've been depressed for a couple years now. I hate it. I feel like its holding me back so much from the person I can be.
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- Art Working / Worked
- You just lose yourself, but in a good way.
- Music Too Soon to Tell
- Music helps me calm down, or just let it out. Its very therapeutic.
- Pets Working / Worked
- I love my cats.
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Positive thinking just seems too much like denial.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- Sometimes talking it out helps, but other times I just feel like I'm a downer or I'm just whining. I prefer not to talk about much of my problems with my friends.
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