is feeling Good
I have been lacking on this site. Sorry. I'll come back soon. Promise.
I'm goofy, artistic, compassionate, genuine, & intelligent. I am desperate for friends who understand & who are on the same path of a better self. I have too many hobbies and currently no job. I am on a path to find balance and peace & sometimes my bipolar gets in the way.
Hiking, veggie-food, softball, camping, gardening, tropical plants, graphic design, typography, acrylic painting, tailoring clothes, writing, collecting great music, movie nights, macs, reading, my faith, Buddhism, tea, eastern faiths, culture, art, psychology, self-education, and loving human beings regardless... unconditional love.
July 8, 2008 5:46pm
O my... i'm obsessed with DS. I know it will die out sooner or later but today I'm rampant with reading & writing here. I don't know …
July 2, 2008 3:57pm
I wake up most mornings lately a little bummed andI have to force myself to do something and smile in order to be ok, hours later. Today I woke up …
June 29, 2008 1:45pm
6/29/08
It was the first day of camp and everyone is moving in. I am hauling a mattress folded in black plastic bag. I am going to be one of the …
June 26, 2008 5:14pm
I just sorta feel like a blob today. I've tried reading some inspirational stories on here to get my mood up and do some things around the house, …
June 25, 2008 10:31pm
I thought maybe I would give a breif history of who I am and my experiences.
I grew up with my dad and step mom. My parents were divorced when I …
hows it going missy? xxx
hey lady just read yr journal comment as well, and I really don't know if we get notifications for them!! I don't think we do! anyhoo, hows life? I did go and apologise in uni and its all sorted now! haha! hope yr well xxx
That sounds very cool. :) I'll add you to my friends on myspace then write you a message through that. I'll include my email address and you can write back to that. :D Talk soon. Cris.
you went to San Francisco? Tell me more. Thank you for all your comments, much appreciated (I commented back to several of them)
even when I'm down you make me laugh. I misssed you!
I was diagnosed as depressed and a.d.d. at around 12 years old in the 90's. My step mom and I were oil and water and we hated each other. (now i know she was a wonderful person just a terrible mom thrown into instant mom situation and the adults didn't have groundwork as parents should have together) I was a child fighting, yelling loud and acting out to get a mommies love - only as kids we seem to do things backwards. ANYWAY- After a childhood of negative attention, neglect, and an a screwy family dynamic and never learning to deal with stress, i moved out at 17 and every year after that till i was 22 I moved, running from bad situations, emotions, and manic behaviors. Lots of drama in between those years. I was diagnosed in 2002 and have half-heartedly found information and received county help here and there. Now in the last two years I have settled down in one home (my moms) and I have secluded myself from people and all public situations. The way I dealt with being manic was to hide and not deal with situations. I haven't worked in years, I'm 25 and I have no friends or work. I read a lot and try to learn peace, balance, faith, and mental health techniques. I am attempting to be in a more normal situation of social activities and trying to get a job that is open with my disability. Trazadone Risperdal Effexor The end.
I was diagnosed when i was 12. I took ridalin, cylert, and herbal pills. After a few years my family gave up and I haven't started treatment since. I am 25 and after I solidify my bipolar meds, i'd like to start add meds again.
I haven't been able to keep a job for longer than 3-4 months. I have a deep sense of shame from my stepmom that I am just learning about and when I am confronted or critiqued in a job situation I become irritated, panicked and shame builds up. After 3 months or so the stress is so overwhelming i start not being able to concentrate at all, and my body is a tight knot effecting my work. I become overly irritated and eventually I am fired or quit because I know I will blow up in someones face.
I"m not sure if I need anger management but I think anything helps, and anyone gets angry right. So I'm sure I can learn something.
My social worker says I am co-dependent. I don't know anything else about it. ...Just In! Apparently my tendency to fall in love too easily is part of codependency. I more or less get attached to people. Eventually I find the irritations and instead of taking it in stride I begin to loathe the person, ok maybe just despise them a little.
I have been depressed since I was 7 or so. Over the years the diagnoses of bipolar has been added.
I was told I have dislexia when I was young but I never had any treatment. I also have a.d.d. but i was not truly treated yet.
I am trying to ease my way into being a full time vegetarian. I have a giant cookbook and that's all to help guide me. I would like to learn more about which vegetables help what and how to keep up with the things I would be missing.
I was diagnosed with bipolar II, and I have never learned to deal with stress. I build up negative situations untill i have a panic attacks. I've reverted to an unsocial lifestyle and do not work because of it.
I was diagnosed first with personality disorder then later with bipolar II.
I have panic attacks after I build up stress and don't deal with the stress.
more vegetarian. no caffeine. splenda only. real food. & tea. tea. tea.
I don't have healthy relationships so I need to learn how to accept that I am worthy of one.
