Journal Entry for August 7, 2008
August 7, 2008 11:02am
Progress
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Goal End Date is Oct 24, 08 47 more days.
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freespirit21
is feeling Horrible
Trying to remind myself it's just another day...
About Me
29 Year old with Bipolar. Seems the last 10 years have been a huge emotional struggle. Divorced for 3 years now. Feel like a failure a lot. Working on loving and giving more in life.
Interests
Reiki, Natural Healing, Supplements, Yoga, Nature, Animals, Reading, Writing, Learning, Meeting new people, travel, beaches!, watching movies
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Recent Activity
August 29
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freespirit21 replied to crystirae’s discussion post i was abused from 3 to13 in the Sexual Abuse support group 12:21pm
I too was molested by my father. I have had every PSTD symtom, IBS, Anorexia, panic attacks, agoraphobia,…
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freespirit21 replied to archangels’s request for advice about Why can,t i just die? in the Sexual Abuse support group 12:15pm
I've asked "why me?" as well, way too much! Girlfriend, you are amazingly strong- you may not…
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freespirit21 replied to their request for advice about Do I tell my parents the truth about what I rememb in the Sexual Abuse support group 12:03pm
Thank you so much for responding guys. I guess I will add some more details. I actually confronted them…
August 26
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freespirit21 replied to bic2’s discussion post Why Are There So Many of US???? in the Sexual Abuse support group 5:12pm
I'm with you- just get rid of these people without hearts that lie and hurt others with no feeling. It's…
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freespirit21 changed their mood to Horrible 5:02pm
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
Been dealing with bipolar symptoms most my life. Really exagerated at age 21 when I first got married and so much changed. I really have no one to share anything with. I could use some friends that understand for sure. My family has tried to be supportive in the past but they really don't understand and live states away. I feel lonely a lot and alone in this illness that affects everything.
Treatments
- Lamictal Working / Worked
- I used it for a year and never went over 25mg like I was supposed to. Seemed to work on ups and downs but felt like a zombie. Went off becuase of cost.
- Lexapro Working / Worked
- Still on 10mg a day which is all I takeit holds me together most of the time. I know I still cycle while on it.
Close Shopping Addiction
Have always been a spender on clothes and makeup. Addicted to new clothes! I spend way too much time on e-bay. I have never had therapy, but I could use support. I have 10 grand in debt to pay off and my financee is concerned with my obsessive spending. So am I! It ends up just making me feel emptier. I really want to conquer this one!
Open Codependency
I am currently living with an alcoholic. I have not wanted to admit that it kills me inside. My parents were drug addicts and changed their life when I was 8. But now I find myself in a 2&1/2 year relationship with someone who drinks half a bottole of rum a day at least-sometimes more. He has emotionally abused me calling me names and I pretty much feel worthless. I am cut off from family and have no friends to speak of. I feel numb and emotionally drained. I feel souless. I need support.
Treatments
Open Sexual Abuse
I've had depression and panic attacks my whole life. I was always sad and felt evil inside and never knew why. I became super angry at my parents by age 14 and they were so disrespectful of my trust. My mom read my journals, my dad tried to read my e-mails constantly and followed me around town in his truck. At 18 I moved out and at age 22 I started having flashbacks. I was in massage school and it brought out all my pain. I thought I was losing my mind.I've had to learn to trust myself.
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- I moved away at age 18-moved back at age 21 and it was horrible. Moved again to Utah at 23 and never looked back. Haven't seen my parents in 2 years.
- Reiki Working / Worked
- I am certified in Reiki and it has helped tremendously.
- \"The Courage To Heal\" Working / Worked
- Just bought this book this week. Even though it's been 5 years since my first flashback, I am just now accepting this is real.
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