angela360's Journal

I really need to update this more than quarterly, lol.  Had lots of ups and downs, but more ups than downs I think.  I think I will finally be getting a definitve diagnosis on a few things that seem to be related to one specific problem.  If that's the case, I will be able to begin the right treatment and start having fun again.  I never stopped living, lol.  Just stopped smiling for a while.  I am quite fearful of the implications of the illness(es) my doctor suspects, because while it/they won't kill me, I could progressively lose the use of both my hands.  So far, it has been happening at an alarming rate in my spine and hands, but much more drastically in my hands.  My fingers have had curvature measureable in degrees over the past 3 weeks.  I can see them changing every day.  But I am ever-hopeful.  I've been letting my faith in God carry me through some pretty sad and scary things, and He has never let me fall.  I just wonder what path this next chapter in my life will lead me down, lol.  Maybe finding a new way to do things and sharing those ideas with others.  I have felt so inclined the past 2 days.  My body might be failing me, but I don't have to fail my body.  Hope evryone has a good week!