hazeldine’s Profile

Close Eating Disorders
: Anorexia

I was rapped at the age of 16 by a man who knew the family well, as i got older i also realised he had been sexually abusing me since i was 11 but was to young at the time to understand right from wrong. As a result i toke to starving myself as felt i was to blame and if i was skinner it may had never had happended as i would lose my curves etc. I have managed to keep my weight the same for the past 5 years but still struggled with eating out in front of people. Back in May 07 i met someone and we are now getting married at the end of the year but my anorexia seems to have come back and this time its alot worse than anytime before. I have started to drink alot of wine in the evenings to stop me from wanting to eat but then sometimes find myself binging on all the wrong foods which results in me not eating a thing for upto a week afterwards. I have become depressed and angry with the world but most of all my partner. I dont recognise myself anymore and im worried if i dont get sorted i will lose him and my dream wedding at the end of the year will be runied. I have even got aggresive with his mum and family which is out of order and i now feel ashamed to ever want to face them again. I really want to be the Happy girl i once knew and want to get back to a normal life. i hope this helps