Masonsmommy0325's Journal

The last few days I have felt a little depressed because I have been stuck at home again with just me and my son. I guess it also brings back memories of where for that one week i was in complete panic and couldnt leave the house. Anyway today i am at my moms and going to go to my cousins little girls bday party (shes turning 1) There for like a week I was so moody and bitchy and me and my bf were fighting alot and we never do. Now we are doingbetter I just told him my emotions are running wild and the worst thing for you to do is go against me and be mean back. I need him them to help me through it. So he understands a little better now, that im not being to be mean i just felt like i had something evil in me...it was scary...anyway 5 more days till i see the psychiatrist and find out exactly what my prob is ....i hope i am not bipolar...im scared...also i got my medical claims and billing first lesson in the mail and i already took my first quiz and got a 100 !! i am so excited.That is going to make me feel like i am accomplishing something since im not working. Also I am still going to FSU this fall (my 3rd year but im still a sophmore :O( ) so i will be going to FSU full time during the day so mason can get out and go to daycare and have fun and also work on my certificate for medical coding...i just hope my bf can put up with me and support me for now while im unemployed...thanks to everyone for your support (((HUGS))) PS I have had only 1 MINOR panic attack for the last week