verymetal’s Profile

About Me

i`m an animator for a games company at present. eventually i`d love to work on narrative based animation, but this is also totally awesome. I`m a total control freak and work extremely hard to try and be better each day; it`s kind of a compromise for having so little control over where my mind takes me and what the results will be. i have a great family, some fantastic friends and only wish i could give more to them sometimes - how great they are sometimes makes me feel guilty for not being able to "cheer up" y`know? i`ve had a few spectacular setbacks along the way (as we all have of course) and only about a year ago finally cracked (make of that what you will ;) ) and tried to find out what was making me feel like this. i`ve been this way since i was about 16 and always thought i was just being awkward or surly, it never ocurred to me that perhaps there was actually something causing it. i dip in and out of counselling, not through choice, i just can`t afford it long term and have just reloacted, so still finding my way around the new place.

Interests

anything to do with animation, music (i`m fairly ecclectic, but generally anything that has an undercurrent of feeling will float my boat), working out (again; little mind control means i like to stay in charge of my body at least), hanging out with my friends when i get to see them, drawing/painting/writing/creating. i like to think as well, a lot of the time this ends badly, but sometimes i enjoy letting the tangents unfold. let it roll as they roll, it`s all beautiful material :)