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WELL MY DAUGHTER HAD HER BABY 3 HRS AFTER GOING INTO HOSPITAL MOTHER AND SON DOING WELL HE WEIGHED 6LB 4OZ. FRAZER …
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This morning I was doing ok. My fiance's trip overseas was delayed until Monday and he has booked for me to join him in October. Then I went to get a blood test and the nurse started talking about teenage boys. I broke down and told her about my son. His accident had been on the front page of our local paper so she had read about him. She is a nurse so has seen a lot of grief so she was supportive. I hope one day I can talk about all this without the pain. I find I can talk about Frazer (FJ) to the people who knew him, we laugh about his jokes... he was always joking, especially if he felt someone needed cheering up. He seemed to have an amazing sense of empathy from the time he was very little. That's why he was so easy to bring up because he could always see someone else's point of view and once it was pointed out to him, he could see the impact his own actions had.
I don't want to leave out my daughter in all this. I realise it sounds as if I only had one child. My daughter is 21 and beautiful, but she lives 200kms away so I don't get to be Mum on a daily basis to her. I miss being mum everyday. My son and I moved out of the city at the beginning of 2007 so I could take up a position as a resource teacher of learning and behaviour in country schools. Shortly after we arrived I met a lovely man and Frazer loved him too. We were planning to get married in January, my son had just been put up into the accelerate programme at his school because he'd got the top mark in maths in the whole school in a nationwide exam, he was so proud. My daughter had just graduated from University... my life was perfect after many years of struggling financially and emotionally. It seems so cruel to lose the one thing that was my strength all the way through the mess. My darling who understood me and I understood because we were peas in a pod. After the service many people said that he had my brain... I feel as if he has taken it with him!
I find myself questioning my faith in everything and yet I need it to get me through.
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I understand your pain.
I am glad that you have emotional support from your daughter and boyfriend.
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I think at least 1/2 my brain went with Scott. I really feel stupid and/or crazy a lot of the time. Short term memory...it wasn't that great before! I understand about the faith issue. I really haven't prayed much since Scott died. I am not mad at God, I just don't have a lot to say to him right now. I think it is a struggle many of us go through. Big hugs and just keep breathing. Ginger
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