MLHinAZ’s Profile

About Me

My name is Michelle, I am 40 years old and live in Mesa, Arizona. I have been through some difficult times lately, and I am really trying to get better. I am working hard on trying to stop drinking and lessen my anxiety. (The drinking is making the anxiety worse.) I want to conquer this addiction. I WILL DO IT!!!

Interests

Camping, swimming, movies, my wonderful cats, spending time with my boyfriend, fishing, going out to the lake or river or on vacation. My biggest interest right now is to get back into my old things I used to enjoy and STOP DRINKING! I started drinking about 2 years ago after someone close passed away. I only drink beer, and it is getting out of control. So, I want to get myself back to the person I used to be. I have a huge family history with alcoholism, I know many alcoholics. I never drank until 2 years ago, and it was a very easy trap to fall into. It's a lot harder climbing out of it. So, I am on here for support to get me through this. I am having a difficult time with AA because I feel as if I am in a class. Sometimes someone will say something I can relate to, but mostly we just take turns and read out loud from a book over and over again. Many of the people are very preachy, some are really scary, and no one really talks to me much. I feel like they don't like me. I was looking for another AA meeting in my area, but they are much later at night or too early in the day. I have all of the books and it gets frustrating because I will pick something to read, understand it and take it in. Then go to a meeting and they seem to always read the chapter I just read the night before. Some of the people insist I must go to 90 meetings in 90 days, but I have been working so much and am starting a part time job in addition to my full time job, I can't fit that in.