Redgoblin's Journal

sorry I haven't been here on daily strength for a whole month, I do apologize. I've been trying to sort things out in my life.

I met a wonderful person on-line and spent the whole weekend just gone with her. I met her on plenty of fish a free dating web-site.
I might have mentioned it before but if not I'll quickly fill you in on the details.

I had a first date on POF and things didn't go to well at all, I was thinking it was perhaps to soon to be dating especially after the split from my ex in April. But me being me, I decided to give it another shot and so recently I met another person on POF, this is now date #2 but this time I think the date went reasonably OK.

I was still very nervous though, and kind of left this new person I met feeling sorry for me. It was not what I wanted to do, but that is what happened. It's so annoying because I'm inclined to think the same thing as before, and that is, is it too soon?

Now I'm in a real state because I really want to keep in touch with her and she phones me and texts me everyday, I don't think she wants to let me slip through her fingers, and I'm due to meet her again this Friday.

Due to the fact that I'm still waiting to start work in September, I'm now finding it really difficult to function, today has been a terrible having lots of time by myself and plenty of time to think about this new person in my life. One should imagine that I would be happy about this, perhaps part of my depression is rearing its ugly head?

 Perhaps this feeling will pass soon, I really do hope so. Coming back to reality after a wonderful weekend, has left me feeling quite low.

Not only do I have low self esteem because of some of the issues I have, and all the baggage from my previous life but I'm starting to doubt myself and my intentions for the future.

I hope I feel better soon.