Journal Entry for September 4, 2008
September 4, 2008 7:44pm
slipped yesterday and smoked. but at least i threw the pack away and only had one
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About Me
I am a Christian.I have been happily married for 20 yrs. I am a work at home mom with an 18 yr old daughter with a herniated disk and a 12 yr old son whose tough to handle some times but a sweetie . My conditions (bipolar 2, GAD &PD) makes it hard to cope with everything but it doesnt help when i let my self run out of medicine. I dont know why I do this? Its really frustrating. when I'm on my med's for the most part I'm ok Then I don't know what happens... I read that a strong support group can help. This was the first one I came across. I like what someone else's proflle said...I AM NOT HERE FOR A DATE. I AM HERE FOR SUPPORT!LOL And to give it :) 6/2008
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Laughing, spending time with my family, when I feel good walking 3 miles a day with my friend, meaningful talks with my kids, watching football with my son & daughter, going to the beach, jet skiing, boating, canoeing, reading, cooking, scrapbooking, running, TV & movies(especially comedy), my computer, my kitty cat Marty, playing with our puppy, Tye(1/2 boxer & 1/2 beagle), spending time with my husband, Faux painting, Scuba diving, helping other people & being helped. Of course this is not the right order of my interests :) lol
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Yesterday :(
September 3, 2008 7:04pm
It was like i was in this deep hole with a lid on it that wouldn't or couldn't come off. The pain was so bad - the only way i can describe it …
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September 1, 2008 9:33pm
OMG! today was such a hard day! i wanted a cig all day! thank God for nicorrette gum!
That saved me today. i let something get me so mad that i did …
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You are very pretty in your picture. Naomi xo
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Well we had similar days. I canned peaches, shopped and cleaned the house and now I am tired. I like tired it meens I may slepp. Going back to the campground this week-end, hope it stops raining. I am glad you had a pretty good week-end. Hope this week-end is as good or better. Love Naomi xo
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Much love and a great big smooch for ya!!! Hope you had a great day.
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I'm sorry that you're having mood swings but you've done a great job with countering them. I can't take anti-depressants because they can cause me to go manic so there is nothing to help me with the dreaded lows. It's good to know that you're starting to feel better :) hang in there!
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just a passing hug!!! have a good day!
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I was diagnosed with bipolar about 10 years ago. I have been on so many different med's I don't know what I have taken or not. Even though I accept my condition I dont know why I let myself run out of meds when I am doing ok on them.
Treatments
- Geodon Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- Trileptal Too Soon to Tell
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- i have to repeat it over &over in my head n sometimes aloud. but I find it helpful.unles i am in a REALLY bad low.
Close Anxiety
to LONG. can i tell some other time?
Treatments
- Atarax Not Working
- Ativan Not Working
- Breathing Exercises Working / Worked
- Breathwork Working / Worked
- Klonopin Not Working
- Lexapro Not Working
- made me sick to my stomach.lost 30 lbs
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Paxil Not Working
- just wanted to sleep
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- i have to repeat it over &over in my head n sometimes aloud. but I find it helpful.unles i am in a REALLY bad low.
- Trazodone Not Working
- Valium Somewhat Helpful
- Xanax Somewhat Helpful
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Trileptal Working / Worked
- Helps me sleep Very well thank you
Open Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I want to quit but its soo hard right now. I want to quit one day & maybe with the help of other former smokers it can give me the encouragement i need. 7-25-08 11I did it:D im an ex! Hooray for me!
Treatments
- Running Working / Worked
- I Love it! I feel good when I run! i am addicted to those good old endorphins Instead of the crappy death sticks. Now that I quit i can run longer too. Its a reward for me. Its awesomeD
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Oh my YES! without that i coudnt have done it. Before I quit i would tell myself im an ex smoker this was months before i quit. I actually have a lot of affirmations i tell myself that havent manifested themselves yet I look forward to them one day soon though
- Nicotine Gum Working / Worked
- Oh my gosh! what a life saver. i started using it a few weeks after i quit along with the patch and it has really helped a lot. When the urge is really strong it seems to help take it away. i carry it everywhere with me! I've had no side affects.
- Nicotine Patch Working / Worked
- Only helped for 4 days.couldnt do it alone. But now as of 7-25-08 i started using the patch again & its working! my mind is ready! i wear it when i sleep to so i dont wake up craving a cig. and othe than the vivid long, sometimes weird dreams its all good:)
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Oh my YES! without that i coudnt have done it. Before I quit i would tell myself im an ex smoker this was months before i quit. I actually have a lot of affirmations i tell myself that havent manifested themselves yet thoughI look forward to them one day soon.
- Running Working / Worked
- I Love it! I feel good when I run! i am addicted to those good old endorphins Instead of the crappy death sticks. Now that I quit i can run longer too. Its a reward for me. Its awesomeD
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- Today is 8/30/08-i became a member awhile before i quit. My quit date is 7/25/08.This is my second day being active in my smoking addiction &recovery support group. Just knowing im not alone & being encouraged by others & seeing their progress has is helping alot. It feels really good to find others that are just as excited about quitting smoking as I am :)
- Willpower Working / Worked
- Oh for sure! this has been a must for me! I tell myself "I have control over this, not it over me" & that helps every time.! I am in control not those nasty cigs!
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI am BP & need some encougment when i am down & when im up i would like to help others
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- made me feel sick to my stomach
- Geodon Working / Worked
- a Godsend
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Oh God yes ! couldnt make it without it!!
- Paxil Not Working
- made me sleep all the time
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- My saying "Happy thoughts"
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- Seroquel Not Working
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- COULDNT do it without them!
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- not taking now but did work when i took it
- Writing Working / Worked
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- great!
- Trileptal Working / Worked
- helps me sleep
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