ilovemymarine1024's Journal

   So things are kinda going as planned in some aspects of my life. Work is going, hate the time i gotta be there but what can you do right???

   I really dont have any friend and well i cried last night. My one and only friend i have known since my freshman year in high school wrote me a message while he was at boot. I just sent him out a letter today. I miss him so much. We would of been at basic together if i did not get discharged, most likley not together while in basic but going to ait together. I guess the saying you dont know what you got till its gone really fits with mine and his friendship. I alway took him for granted. Always though he was gonna be here, now that he is not I realized how lonley I'm without him. I must of said I miss you 20 times in that letter.

   My weekend could of went better. Fought with the boyfriend. I guess i was over reacting cause he never called me back. Well when it a everyday thing that he says he will call back and never does you get kinda sick of it. Is it so hard to remember to call me before you fall asleep. I mean yes we text eachother but i would rather hear his voice then see an emotionless text on my phone. I dont know. We have been upset with eachother for a while now. I guess me more then him. I tell him I should not have to fight for his attention he agreed with me. He was doing well for like a week then came the not talkin to him for the whole weekend. "Oh I promise to call you." Yeah bullshit. I love him I really do. I just dont understand him all the time.

   All I want is for the end of October to come and yet I dont. My dad is getting married (happy but then not), one year with chris(really happy), then chris leave for deployment(cry everytime i think about it). He is getting restationed when his deployment is over. High chance of him getting based over seas I guess. We dont know what we are gonna do if he does. I cant stand the thought of losing him. He is my best friend. He knows everything about me. I just cant wait for the day he will be back home for good. Little less then three years YAY!!!!