Jenn's Journal

here i am again....miss all of you...to all my friends here at DS that suppor me, give me advice and offer me your words of encouragement and support, THANK YOU FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART. Getting through my beloved father's nine year anniversary of his passing last Friday was really tough, but, in some ways, i just kept saying to myself before you know it, it will be tomorrow...like my love, and feelings would change??!! I just HATE feeling like after nine years, hurt, anger and just sadness...love never dies and memories cannot be taken away from us....so the hurt can't be taken away either. My DAD was the BEST....he was much too young, 59!!! Monday, October 15th was my mother in law's 12 year anniversary of her passing...she, too, was much too young, 47!!!! It hurts. Time goes on, doesn't wait for no one, and the hurt, is still there, maybe not as raw as it was in the beginning, but it is there....i feel numb many days! How I wish I could see my Dad and my mother in law (seriously) -- she was a sweetie! I wish Anthony could run, play and be read to by the both of them. I never thought in a million years that my child(ren) would never know his grandpa/grandma! It SUCKS

I really miss you all...getting on here is getting more and more challaging....with me working, then picking up my son, then coming home and starting the homework/nighttime routine, i am whipped out by 6PM!! But, I like the new job, the people seem very nice, the work is NOT very hard, but, I do have a lot to learn.

You are all wonderful...THANK YOU FOR BEING YOU!! :) 

Tomorrow, Friday, October 12th will be nine years that my father passed on. I still cannot believe that nine years has come and gone..i miss my father deeply and wish he was able to be here with all that love him. He passed so suddenly and he was soo young, 59. We never got to celebrate my wedding together, or the birth of my son, who is named after him, Anthony. I cannot believe it. I sit here and just shake my head with tears rolling down my face. My Dad was the BEST. He is loved soo much by so many people, as, clique as that may sound. He was fun, and, very loving. I am in shock that tomorrow is here, again, his anniversary...it is sad.

I have not been here but i am going to really try to get to DS more....and get to all of you and reach out to you, my friends, both old and new. Love, hugs and friendship.....Jenn 

hi everyone! I miss you all when I am not here at DS...the days go so quick and before you know it, it's the end of another week....SO, I hope you are all doing well, I have to get on your profiles and check out what is going on with each and everyone of you...hope you are all doing well, and, that you are enjoying your week.

I am starting that part time job, that some of you may know that I went on the interview for two weeks ago! I begin on Monday. The hours are 9AM until 2PM...honestly, I felt that I had to get a job, due to the fact, that my only son is in kindergarten all day, until 3PM!! So, I think that getting back to the swing of work will be good for me, my son and my marriage....coming from a financial standpoint....living here on Long Island is killer with the taxes. So, that is what is going on....and, my Anthony is doing beautifully in kindergarten!!! I know SO MANY OF YOU told me so...but, I really was a mess as you all know, but, thanks to all of you, I was able to pull through from your support and advice...again, THANK YOU.

Thinking of you all, hoping to speak with you more tomorrow...i am going to sleep! phew, am i exhausted!